Back then yea a few, but now since I've been forever alone for so long I just don't care anymore. A little throwback when I was boring, then I just move on with my life.

I realized the older I get, the lesser my interest in pursuing a relationship. Tired of get rejected or friendzoned, TBH I like my life better when I didn't think about any women. Because whenever I think about women, all I get is miserable and negativity. Not saying I hate those womens who rejected me, I just a soft person and only want to live a good life.

do you find driving a tired activity?
Of course not, cause you already do it so many times
Can you not drive? Sure naik grab je
but you still have to move your body somewhere

for me, those who claim they are avoidant with people or relationships have issues to cure

even myself who hooked up with lots of ladies have things to learn

It wouldn't be fair if we said women hard to handle, I work in IT and real estate fields, met a lots of people and there is people that are easy going and those always makes things harder to dealt with. From any kind of races and gender of course, conclusion is some people aren't easy to deal with.

Now if ada jodoh then ok let's see how far we can go, else then fine by me since i've been single for so long, no problem with it until now then so be it. It hurts you know, being rejected and thinking about it over and over again. Times will cure but it be long, and it will traumatize you afterwards. Everybody has a choice, if you like someone doesn't mean they must like you too no matter what. I respect those ladies choice and I leave them alone, move on with my life because that's what a man should do.

the thing is how can u miss, u will meet endless type of people and female, just go and try

I think about my ex, when the time we being together, i really thought that we are marry in future, but you know, things won't goes as expected. Life still go on no matter what, so now what can do is try not to regrets in future.

who to miss when i am not really anybody to the person i care about? lol
finding a special someone is unlike buying car i like, i can afford it and the car is mine.

Money is meaningless to get someone to actually care/love me. Face and/or charisma are the most important key factors, and i have neither.

Close to 40 and my career is going well without much effort, thank you for the good luck. But am i happy? No, seriously no, go back to a double storey house with me alone. Drive a nice car, so what? traveling is a chores and forgetable memories at the end etc.

During the night time, i may even depressed until thinking why i was born?
Lol.