Hey guys, Just wanna seek some opinions. No bashing please...

I am happily married for closed to 8 years. I don't have any ex's. So my whole life I only got 1 boyfriend which is now my husband. The good side, I never experienced hurt/ lie/ cheat/ backstab and stuff. The bad side, let's talk about it.

We were in LDR (SG-KL) for 3 years before tying the knot. I am not the clingy type. He is also the ignorance one. Can prioritize his Dota until late night without feeling guilty. I am OK with it cause I also enjoyed my me time. lol

So after married and moved to KL, I was in a bit cultural shock cause we just realized both of our bad habits come to surface. Sucks, I know right? Should not advocate to LDR to begin with. Fast forward two and half years later, we welcome our one and only child which is now 5 years liao.

Nah... When I gave natural birth, I was so busy taking care of our baby that I kind of neglected him la. No sex for a year. After that, on and off. Maybe due to postpartum period? 

But recently, , I don't know what happened me. My sex drive suddenly peak high. I am so into adult film such as 365, grey, newness... you name it lah..

Then, of course, I initiated lo. Just to give you some context, I was 52KG before pregnant. Now is 54KG, BMI = 21. Recently. I am back to workout 3x a week, do multiple sports like swim, badminton, jogging over the weekends. So I consider myself balance and healthy.

To my surprise, hubs performance in bed is deteriorating. Not even 15 minutes including role play hor, I feel slippery down South there. I asked if mine was loose? He said still tight like the first time he put his plug into my socket. So I told him I suspect its PE. Well, guess what, the next day I asked again, he don't want liao. Merajuk mode on.

I thought in a relationship, we supposed to communicate with each other? Am I wrong to tell him like that? Why so offended sia, we've been knowing each other for decades pun..

I remember he commented this to me, my breast is no longer firm as before. Like seriously, my size was 34B and now is 34D, 2 cups upsized thanks to breastfeeding. But when I looked in the mirror, I still find myself as hot like your typical next door milf. Even during workout, I sense some stares.

Now I keep thinking, is it because my boobs unappealing to him? From apple to mango size that turned him off? I'm so upset to even consider breast reconstruction!
Ok, to give you his background, He is sedentary person. Not really into exercise, like to eat good food. When I calculate his BMI, he is overweight. Asked him to move his ass but the message gone to deaf ear. Like I said, ignorance close to lazy. I even have to keep reminding him to groom himself. I can tolerate all of this but the recent bed skill, I cannot. During his youth, He chiong when his first love left him. Have 4 exes before committed to me. He used to be good, made me wet. Ahhh.. I missed those time.

Oh ya, our gap is 6 years. He is going to 4 head soon and I thought men at this age tend to have second stages puberty? Why I don't see it in him? What's wrong?

Damn, I have to DIY self-pleasure until the extend I prefer my toys over his. Now, I am regretting why I was not this horny 10 years ago. I should have at least get to taste multiple batangs before marriage. Why my youth so innocent? You know what I mean? This is the downside to be raised up by conservative parents.

It cross my mind to join the dating apps hype but my inner moral said no is no. I also scared. Karma exists and I am blessed with beautiful family. Hubs provides everything.

But my need.... I cannot rely on toys all the time. How? What should I do next?