don't know how ts worked out but can try counsellor. no need to eat meds. 1 hour 150.

i had depression, autism and panic attack

i went 10 times counsellor and 1 time psychiatrist, counsellor works better on me because they teach me how to trace out the root of these symtoms and how to face and accept them. it takes time (been 1 year i still discovering new roots of these symtoms that happened on me in the past) but once it's solved its gone.

anxiety meds tend to super effective just for short period of time and can get addicted and dependent quite easily. they (psychiatrist) asked me to consume with strict sleeping time and exercise. i feel i can just adjust myself without eating the meds and stopped revisiting.

This post has been edited by NoobHacker: Mar 27 2022, 09:52 AM

yeah actually for my case the phone call front liner check with what issue i have first, before proceeding further, not sure if you approach them can have simple check for free.

for your case, need the simple check first before knowing how to proceed. i think the best bet now is to checkup at GH as suggested by the others.

exercise do help in my case, tremendously, im not a doctor, it works in a way that when we have mental health issues our certain sensors get too sensitive so the anxiety and such can ramp up very quick. exercise help to slow that process down.

yeah some people overrate exercise as the golden cure for all mental issues. it helps but its not the main cure.

i dont like to exercise so i brought my ipad to gym and play with it while exercising. some people may critique me but i got my tshirt entirely wet before going home. now i exercise properly. i just feel very sticky on my skin if i didnt exercise for like 3 days.

dont take those people saying just change ur mind, keep thinking useless stuff and etc. this just not work. imagine u just go to mental hospital and tell everyone see they go suicide or not. if they all instantly cured in this way then all mental doctors lost their job already.

This post has been edited by NoobHacker: Apr 1 2022, 05:10 PM

Just go have a check up, even get some advice is good for you. you won't trouble people. they are established for this purpose. don't force yourself. consider it's good for your life. who knows you can change your life positively forever instead of living in stress forever.

i believe your body want you to go but something in your logic resists.

Yea i care more or less or just a tiny bit on how people judge me. but gym is fine since people do their own stuff.

Yet having suicidal thought is not equal to fine. I used to think like that, japanese go suicide so i can hold much longer because I didn't feel like want to suicide. Until my body giving issues then I start to take it seriously. I don't even feel anything wrong with my mental health back then.

I been afraid to sleep for many years. I feel like there is always a very big stone with dark scary energy haunting me. Recently i realize i have extreme mental self harm behavior. And I found who is the stone. It's the stress level i been using all time to gain higher excitement. i been in a very stressful state that i need to find some excitement beyond the stress threshold. I need to make my stress feeling numb to cope with the extreme stress from outside. i cant feel any excitement anymore, thus i need very extreme ones thats motivated by the stress. i even scold myself and cry and get excited from it, since the cry emotion can push the excitement further.

and I thought i was fine. because everything i mentioned been become normal and numb, but my body cant handle it. even my behavior start to become extreme and weird, blaming myself why i need friends, why i cannot lock in my room forever, why human need friends, i am so weak.

After I realize the stone, it vanishes. But when I look back the events (those i used to feel numb already), they are very scary. the emotions been accumulating and i been making myself more numb to the emotions. My unusual fluctuating blood pressure finally drops, and I feel like im a new self. I remember yesterday went mid valley to buy stuff, i look at the name on my credit card, i feel so unfamiliar, but it's a good thing. i gained new life.

This post has been edited by NoobHacker: Apr 13 2022, 11:02 PM