Hi everyone,

Sometime back in june 2020, for the first time i had this feeling of incontinence, like at work at any time feel like going to lose control. Also i noticed at that time after going, i still feel fullness and like i need to go again. Stool at that time also inconsistent, sometimes diarrhea, sometimes thin narrow stool. I didnt notice any blood but there was black tarry stools on and off, not sure if that is dried blood. I did feel a lump at my anus area, but i really cant remember if it was always there before, felt like it was haemorrhoid.

Was really suffering at that time for 2 weeks, not sure how i still manage to go to work. Wanted to go hospital, but felt embarrassed want to check that area, the hairryness and all, sigh. But thankfully, 2 weeks after i was back to feeling normal. So i didnt go for any check. But that lump at the anus was still there, i kind of felt like it had always been there for years though, so i didnt really bother about it.

But now after many months, again im having the same thing. Like incontinence feeling and fullness after going kind of feeling. Dont know what to do, really suffering and poor quality of life at the moment. I still feel so embarrassed to go hospital and check. Dont understand what is going on with me, after many months this thing come back again...sigh 😔. Hope not colon cancer...