You most definitely need help. Childhood trauma has a tendency to bite you in the butt when you're an adult.

I too come from a broken family. Do not undermine the impact a divorce has on the affected children's psyche.

The damage from childhood trauma and divorce is long lasting but if addressed properly, you can live a normal life.

You have a few options that depend on your background.

I don't recommend seeing a psychiatrist from the get go, unless you have a good reason to suspect that you are suffering from a disorder.

If you can afford counselling, you should look for a counselor who is accessible to you location wise.

If you happen to have friends or family that studied psychology, try asking them for a recommendation. I can't give you a recommendation because certain counselors work for some people and but are not suitable for others. It may take a few tries before you find a counselor you can work with.

If you are a religious Christian, or you do not mind getting support from a church, some churches offer free counselling. I can't speak for other religious bodies because I'm not familiar with them.

Other than counselling, try and get family support if possible. I cannot stress enough the importance of family members in promoting mental health, and you shouldn't have to deal with it alone.

If family support isn't an option, feel free to PM me. Sometimes all you need is just someone to brainstorm with you. It doesn't help that my account is still on probation and I only get 3 posts every 12 hours. I'm no mental healthcare provider, but I've been in your shoes and I wished there was someone to guide me when times were tough.