Hello everyone,

First of all, let me clarify some details for your reference.
1) I'm a muslim
2) My husband doesn't initiate sex or seems to be interested in me sexually.
3)He self confessed regarding his porn addiction which leads me to feel so down because of all the beautiful girls in porn and i know i couldn't compete with them.
4) I hope i could get out from this marriage because i felt so unwanted and alone. I'am extremely desperate for a human touch.
5) There is one time i install tinder just hoping to find someone that can have sex with me. But, halfway I chicken out because i'm afraid of god punishment even though it is so so sooooo tempting. It hurts so much.
6) I already tried for counselling, slow talk with my husband and try to be more sexy but all my efforts are in vain.

And the most painful thing is he will give my so many weird reasons like tell me to pray first, ignore about my sexual needs and still with his own way after I remind him constantly.

Please someone tell me how to get away from this marriage. I don't want to spend my entire life with him like this anymore. PLEASE HELP ME!!!

I already ask him whats his fetish and how can i cater to his fantasies.
He say he like older women and voluptuous women. And sometimes he didn't think about sex with me because he tired. But, keep on playing with his dick while watching porn when I'm sleeping beside him.

I do not want to sound like full of myself but I do have curve and younger than him 2 years. I guess he just want to be married to me for convenience.

No sex before married for us.

It's true and now I'm struggling to find solution.
Thank you for your concern. I really appreciate it.

Dear TS,

Please just ignore those fella who asked for height/weight/body size or whatever. Personally i think even the questions are sexist, and shallow. I'm not sure if they are married, but i can feel they just didn't understand how marriage works.

CC isn't a good place to get constructive advice, especially about marriage.

Pre-marital advice ... maybe
Post-marital advice .... hardly

Personally, I love my wife's self-confidence. I didn't know where she draws her confidence from, though at this point she has nothing much and financially dependent on me i would say. And yes, we have been married for yearsssssssssssssssss .. and going strong.

Don't bother to seek your answer here.
Probably better get some professional counselling service, if you can afford.