I am perplexed to see so many of you commenting without knowing the truth or what is this all about exactly. I am a housemen too. I am a scholar from a gov body. I studied so hard to secure the scholarship. Life was all about books only. I finished medical school in  a prestigious university in Malaysia. Looking back of my timeline. I have worked so hard to become who I am today. But  once i have started my working life... i always wonder is all my sacrifice worth it. My friends who were below average students are earning more then me. Having great social life. Getting married. While here i am getting nagged and scolded every single day. I dont feel that i am a doctor at all. All i do is take blood, set line, take hx and carry out plans that are given by our bosses. Most often i feel that i am not part of the team. Why not engage us housemen in patients management? I feel like a clerk, phlebotomist, typist but never felt like a doctor. My friends who were graduated with the same degree like me in Australia canada and UK are trained more like doctors. They have their own consultation room! Tell me who is at fault? The doctor or the system? Yes we have shift system. Do you think we get to clock in and out as per schedule? We often work longer then our 'shift'.  There are time where i have gone back 4 to 5 hours after my shift ends. Furthermore, do you think we will be motivated enough with the recent contract system? Life is so vague. What if i dont get MOship? Why should i slough like a dog now?  Just to be denied placement later? Why not quit now?  Its only been 5 months down the lane... i am already on anti depressants. Met in accident twice already. I have tried committing suicide also. Trust me i am aint a strawberry baby. Been through hardship of life as an orphan. To those who keep comparing 'DURING MY TIME'.... eh hello at least you guys can be sure of your permanent MOship. That would have been a motivation for you guys to be persistent.