I'm still awake, doing some shit data's cleaning in my system that caused by irresponsible users.

Ya, I'm working on call 24/7 basis. So I got call this morning at 2 am and do some troubleshooting.

Why r u depressing?

Nope, I'm a system engineer. Doing my job remotely from home.

I also had a very rough journey few year back with lots of problem financially, with my wife, my families and also issue with my working environment. It's quite stressful with all the pressure all around u even at one time I also felt that no more hope in everything. I even at few time's I injured myself due to the stress, but luckily I got support from my wife.

Yes it's very tough, but if u keep on positively thinking that everything will be back to normal or better, it will help u to go thru all the issues/stress that you're experiencing now.

U married? How bad is your situation? What types, of issues that depressing you on? Love, work, family, finance?

In my case, my situation it took me 2-3 years to get better. It got even better after I change to a new job, which also give me more income to cover my financial difficulties which also at same time making other things better as well.

My previous job require me to travel 200km everyday from Senawang to Subang, due to my wife workplace(Gov Unit) in Senawang. At first it was still ok for me to travel after 1 year of working, but due to the travel/repair costs and some mistake that I made here and there, my debt keep on increasing and I could not sustain it. This caused me to frequently quarreling with my wife. This also impacted my work performance where I felt no more mood to go to work.

At that time also I was diagnosed with bowel ulcers issue(not yet mutate to cancer) where I had to undergo a 9 hours surgery to remove my large colon to avoid it from becoming cancer. The post surgery was very painful where I rely on morphine to ease the pain. This is the most stressful situation for me and my wife since we stayed quite far away from both of our families.

There are other situation as well that quite stressful, but I managed to hold on till everything went better.

Why dont u take a break to go to place to ease up your mind. I suggest for you to go to any island just to relax. Take your time to think thru everything that happening and try to come out with a solutions. U need to do something to break yourself from the current situation.

Not necessarily, u plan your holiday just to relax your mind. Sometimes if you're alone at a new place can help your feel relaxed.

First 6 months I drove my Saga only, but due to need to pay for parking, toll's and fuel cost, I changed to buy 250cc bike. but still quite tiring travel long distance.

How long ur breakup with her?

Just take it easy, like people said, we always thought that the person that we loved not always the one that meant to be with us. Sometimes the right person just right next to you without you realized it. You're just 31, there are still long road for you to go. Just don't think to hard and you'll be fine. Separation takes times to heal, but after you healed, a much better world will be open to u.