TS, not sure whether the following advice will be helpful or not, but just to let you know that there are people who are still care of you.

The main issue on your depression, from the basic story, you are putting all the negative parts of your life to justify as reason why you are so down now. It would be good if you can mental break these up into parts, suggest below;

1) Dad & family issues - Those are already history & whatever happens, you will learn that in future once you have a family, you will know how to manage, which is right & wrong. Past is already past & move on. Your mum issue is also the same. Those that have pass, you must learn to let go. Mistake has been done (by others, not you) & live with it. Since you are now provided your ownself, it is possible you will raise up again, just need patience & never give up attitude.

2) Girlfriend & possible flings issue. Feel your ex is too much. She is requesting too much something that not much men can do/pursue when in relationship. Maybe she forgot that all men (& women) are sinners which bound to make mistake. The way she want you to be is unrealistic. Surely during the relationship, you are not yourself & sacrificing in order to satisfy her expectation. This is already a problem in your existing relationship. If this continues, how long you can think you can stand such high standard? Surely 1 day, you will be depress in a long run. She is selfish, man. On the possible flings, she just send you the pictures & flirting. You are not yet married with your ex, so there is still chances to know better girls/options. So no wrong done here.

By reading, feel she will never forgive you & if you still pursue for her acceptance, it will be a long winding road. This, also doesn't mean in the end she will accept. So, you have to ask yourself, do you still want to get back to her & lead back the same lifestyle & entertain her demands same as before?? Suggestion - DUMP HER!!!

3) Working life. It is normal to switch jobs when you are not earning well/feel unappreciated/ better offers outside. As means of surviving, do the jobs that sufficient to provide you on your living. If the current jobs will be help on your career progression, that is a bonus. No rush. Sometimes we need to work just to keep our heads above water.

4) Social circle. Meet up with more people & know more friends, will help to alter your depression issues. Usually when you feel more fortunate compared to those even less fortunate than you. If you want to try, try search & watch youtube on Bersamamu as a start....When you have such feeling, you will feel blessed more. Participate in religion activities & doing public service also provides the same feeling.

All the best there bro!!!!

This post has been edited by kbhai: Nov 5 2019, 02:57 PM