Anyone still awake? I just wanna talk cause I'm feeling really depressed right now.

Why cannot sleep? What you work so early need to wake up

Why depressed? I just woke up. I am preparing nyself for flight to Bangkok

Can't forgive myself. Can't face ppl around me. Felt like a failure...

Then? Nurse?

Thank you.

I realise my mistake and all the problems that follow me but maybe too late

Thank you. I know the right thing to do and all but it's just it's so difficult to do the right thing now. Feel so empty and no one I can talk to. Not even my family. Night time is so scary.
How to think positive? I hope there's someone here comforting me too....

What do you mean. What still available?

Why you not as lucky as me. You won't want my life.

My previous job require me to travel 200km everyday from Senawang to Subang, due to my wife workplace(Gov Unit) in Senawang. At first it was still ok for me to travel after 1 year of working, but due to the travel/repair costs and some mistake that I made here and there, my debt keep on increasing and I could not sustain it. This caused me to frequently quarreling with my wife. This also impacted my work performance where I felt no more mood to go to work.

At that time also I was diagnosed with bowel ulcers issue(not yet mutate to cancer) where I had to undergo a 9 hours surgery to remove my large colon to avoid it from becoming cancer. The post surgery was very painful where I rely on morphine to ease the pain. This is the most stressful situation for me and my wife since we stayed quite far away from both of our families.

There are other situation as well that quite stressful, but I managed to hold on till everything went better.