I only emailed them, never called. It took 2 weeks for a reply. I waited each time while I was depressed. I found that I often regret writing the emails because I was ashamed to tell others. This lasted for about a year or so.

It didn't really help because I was always regretful of expressing myself.

Then, I got myself a journal and just wrote my feelings. It helped me because no one else understood me, I felt. When I reached out, I was never expecting advise but just someone to listen to me, but I always regret because I felt ashamed. I have some deep issues stemming from my childhood, so that fucked me up until now.

For me, I find it best to just write in my journal whenever I am depressed or just do things like watch videos to get my mind off things or even just sleep.

Everyone's different.

I know it may not solve all my problems, but if I write it in my private journal, at least, it would not make me feel regretful compared to me talking about it to Befrienders or people other than my siblings.

I know I have deep issues.

I am not suicidal anymore but I do fall into depression every now and then. I talk to my siblings occasionally but they are also like me, they have issues too because we grew up together in a shitty environment. I feel better talking to them or writing in my journal. For me, my journal is better.