my passport died. i did not renew it yet.
I grew up in chaos. Grew up without parents, moving house 1 or 2 times a year, suffered abuse when i was young. I am no stranger to chaos.
different cell different loh.
1. No regrets in my life. It is because i went to prison that i found Islam and found hope to change my life in a different direction.
   Majority of people live their life doing 1 thing and 1 thing only. Trying to be as comfortable as possible and trying to avoid pain as much as possible.
   Do not fear pain, discomfort or suffering. Those things are a price for many good things. Obviously don't go looking for meaningless pain ,  discomfort or suffering.
   Change is difficult and painful. Sacrifice is difficult and painful. Letting go off something is difficult and painful. Going to the gym is difficult and painful.
   Accept pain, discomfort or suffering. Embrace pain, discomfort or suffering. Mutafuka, i am telling you, take pain, discomfort or suffering out for a nice candle light dinner, hold hands with her and bring her home and and fucking    make love to her. Because if you want a better life, pain, discomfort or suffering will be right there till the day you die.
   Pain, discomfort or suffering is a part of ,progress, winning, improving, change for the better, training, etc etc. all the good stuff.

  
2. There is no dabbling in a life of crime. You stick a finger in the pond, you get sucked in.
    I did illegal businesses. Money was good, but no peace in my heart, no joy, no happiness (temporary happiness got bah) no purpose, no pride in myself, i hated myself.

    I used to think i was a hardcore mutafuka because i can sleep at night peacefully with all the things i done and all the things i seen, but actually now i think its just sad because i am just desensitized due to going thru too much shit. 

   I know a few guys who retired from that life ( we can't leave that life but we can retire. Once u go in, there is no getting out. )
   Main reason people retire is because of a girl, actually. Like the movie John Wick.
   I have seen people go back to that life after they lost the girl. haha.