Need someone to talk to cause all my other friends gave up on me.
I met this girl in the year of 2017. She caught my attention then caught my heart, vice versa. She is everything I look for in a girl. I MEANT EVERYTHING!
With her, I was more organised, I was more aggressive in my work & I was full of energy.
We meet every weekday but now we still see each other daily (because of work), straightly work.
I've been fetching her everyday for the 6 months straight. 20KM to her place and another 28KM to work, back and forth.
We had dinner almost every day. We even spend random weekends together. And we for sure either spend time on face-time or on call daily.
We are not a couple but I've introduced to her all my bestie(s), next in line was my family.
Majority label us as a couple.
After sweet 6 months, all hell broke loose, her ex found out she is seeing someone else, he forced himself back into her life by playing the pity card. Even tried to play the bigger man role by offering any sort of help if he can (i went into a car accident at that time).
She went back to him but at the same time holding on to me, she hopes she can fix him then come back to me, but at the end, she left me for good to be with him.
But she left me something, a statement that one day, if she manage to leave him for good, she wish to be come back to me.
I still enjoy seeing her smile, I still get her presents for her birthday and Christmas.
Sometimes when I see her frown, I knew something was wrong, but I do not dare to ask "how are you".
Lately I've been dreaming of her and had been revisiting some of our old photos.
I do not dare to admit to my close friends that I still miss her so I often lie to them.
But this past is affecting me to actually look for new love, cause unconsciously I always do comparison.
I found "The One" but she is with someONE else