Come I was depressed before. I started doing small things, like folding your blanket, and making your bed clean, then upgrade clean room. Then house. Don't depend on maid. If you can clean your own toilet and room and house. You are already being useful. Wear facemask, clean the Attic. Find some hobbies like orchid cultivation, gardening. Ect don't think too much. Just get things done. I started small and the recovery that I have now is I am happily married. Life is not about being happy all the time but be responsible to yourself and not let the unhappiness take up all your time. Good luck.
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