Here to add on, Jake is right. There are some pharmacies that sells older SSRI's like Zoloft without prescription. Depending on TS's location.
But TS, I have to emphasize here. Anti-depressants are NOT happy pills. They do not enhance your happiness in any way, and are only meant for long term therapy. In certain cases, patients who take them feel worse due to the side effects etc. and suicide is actually a counter-indication of these drugs.
That is why, just don't. Unless you're prepared to have a psychiatrist monitor and manage. Counselling is a more important step in this stage you're in, do you have anyone to talk to?

Now now, that's a bit of an overreaction.
Of course psychiatrists have higher suicide rate among patients, it's like saying an ENT has higher rate of patients suffering ear disorder.

What are you talking about? Depending on who?
Can't help but feel you're projecting some personal experiences here. Might indulge you, but that's hijacking the thread

Now you're talking to yourself. Being glib, intentionally vague isn't helping anyone don't you think. Doesn't make you sound intelligent any, just continue your brainfart at your own convenience.

For government you need a referral letter, either from your own GP or a government clinic. Then you have to make an appointment at the government specialist center.
What Hahn suggested is more practical, since these drugs are long term. You don't just take them on and off, most people take for years and it is very very expensive if you go the private route. That together with some counselling can help, though the process takes time. Weeks, months even before you feel better

Another "cure" would be through faith, if you know what I mean. Everything you are feeling is relative, sure you are suffering but physically it can't kill you unless you let it. So just hang in there.

What's the worst that could happen?

There is no near future, tomorrow is now. Start small. Little positive habits.