Hi guys, wanted to talk about my depression. Firstly, I would say that I'm introvert ever since my parents bought me a PC. I stay at home mostly all the time, surfing the internet and play games all day. But, I will go to 7-Eleven first to buy junk food and a pack of cigarettes before I start my adventurer on the INTERNET. Which it became a routine for a few month. Mostly I would denied my friends offer when they invite me to hang out since i'm comfortable in my own zone. I hate to socialize as well, even if i go hang out with my friends, I don't really talk much and mostly i'm on my phone. Then, there this one time when they invite me to smoke a joint with a group of 6 people that I occasionally hang out with. We sat at this table by a pool, where 6 of them talk non stop and keep sharing their stories, while others give their thoughts. I sit there and listen quietly and didn't even say a single word, after awhile they got suspicious that I rarely talk, it's been like 4 hours straight. They start looking at me without saying a word laughing while I awkwardly play my phone that ran out of battery, I feel the pressure that they are making fun of me like I have some mental issue. I notice about it at the time but I can't even say word. The way they laugh whats trigger me, 4 of them covering their mouth trying not to laugh while the other 2 trying to keep a serious face. About 2-3 minutes after that happen, at last. I said a word which is "ENOUGH!", then I tell them that they are piece of shits. Everyone was pretty much shock, then they start making stupid excuses that they wasn't laughing at me. It was pretty obvious tho, I may not say a word but I have ears. After that, I took all my stuff on the table and walk my way home at 4 a.m. which is like 2 km. After I got home, I straight away turn on my PC, which is the only thing that could calm me. I proceed to ignore them for 6 month and still counting. I don't mind about it and they for sure don't care about it. Losing a quiet guy from the group wouldn't make much a different and I can't even call it a loss. Some times, we even come across at the food court and some places, we greet each other then they ask me where I been and stuff. I made some stupid excuses like "Too busy with my job, no time to hangout". After a few chitchat, I ciao. That's pretty much it, lol. Ever since that day, I was quite lonely but I don't mind at all, its fun being alone. Especially when you're introvert.

You're socially awkward, not depressed.

"Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, first make sure that you are not, in fact, just surrounding yourself with assholes."

"Loneliness is dangerous. It’s addicting. Once you see how peaceful it is, you don’t wanna deal with people."

Hi TS,

firstly you are are a normal person.

secondly, 'like to be alone' is different thing than 'introvert'.

thirdly, feeling sad out due to rejection is not normal, it does not constitutes depression.

lastly, you are not alone here, cause people like myself are responding to your worries.

we all are connected in some way.

I don’t think that’s depression.
More like antisocial behavior instead as introvert

You don't like to socialize and it's perfectly fine but you don't need to be rude to your friends. Plus since this is health and fitness subforum, I don't think anyone would encourage you to proceed with your unhealthy lifestyle (junk food/gaming all day/smoking).

If you have issues with moods, depression etc., please look for Joyce at http://advance-dynamics-asia.com/. Heard she is good and appeared on tv once. She is an hypnotherapist.

You should do whatever make you feel happy. Follow your heart and you will know what you really want in life. However, you are not living in island, you will eventually need to interact with people when you start your working life. Try to learn to listen to people might help your social skill. good luck.