i've taken modafinil before. it goes by the trade name modalert in malaysia. it's nothing special. you're not getting any superpowers of any sort. if you don't feel like opening a book without modafinil, you won't feel like opening a book with modafinil.

imagine getting a night worth of good sleep. that's what modafinil feels like minus the the body feeling rested. nothing else. it just keeps you awake. that is all.

if you're looking for the obsessive one pointed state of mind to get things done, what you want is adderall and unfortunately, you can't get it in malaysia.

if you're thinking of taking up meditation, the first 15 minutes is all you need provided you're following proper techniques like basic samatha. the end result is that you have less stray thoughts and your reaction to emotion is blunted. still wouldn't help with helping you do what you do not want to do. anything more than 15 minutes and you're chasing after mind states which is fun but actually requires months worth of consistent effort. it feels good but again, wouldn't help with making you do what you do not want to do.