First of all i admit creating a new account to discuss about this issue. Who am i doesnt really matter i guess.. Im a guy, 27, I got married for a year with a very nice & pretty girl, her family & mine are friends since ages.. Lets say, our parents were really happy to see us got married.
But.. Ive been a closeted gay since i cant remember when. Nobody knows about this except this one friend, who is also my partner. Everyone who knows me & my wife thought we are so perfect to each other, loving couple.. But in reality, i just cant develop the feeling towards her. I decided to marry cuz at one point, i thought i should end all this gay thing, get over with it, marry her, be straight & raise a normal family.
i tried to live like a normal couple, i thought it would help me to change eventually. We got married, we bought a new house, cars, get ourselves some stable jobs, go for holidays, cook - just like any other married couple
But things doesnt really work through out.. I am still attracted to men & not to women. The feeling is just not there & i really dont wanna hurt my wife.. Oh god, ths is worse than stuck between a rock and a hard place