I first met her when we were 17 years old, her class was next to mine but we met at Chemistry tuition.
She saw me sitting by myself, still a loner after all these years.
And she took me in, I joined their pack and be the only guy.
After some times, I fall in love with her and everyone see it from my eyes including our teacher.
However I did nothing back then because her first love went terribly and she never accepted since (as I noticed that a lots of girls do the same).
Almost 1 year later I confessed and rejected, as expected.
But we continued as friends for all these year, until last year we contacted even more frequent.
She mentioned she is unhappy at work and me being me, hold her hand and hug her, basically being her shelter for several days.
Note: she always mentioned we are just friends and will never be anything more, and I'm ok to be her friend and pretend I am of without feeling.
However after being her shelter for several days, I found out that she has a bf (1st time after all these years).
I saw them having dinner because I'm having dinner there too.
The reason it hurts so much is because, when I saw her smile while talking to that dude, I realized I never saw that previously.
She is more happy in front of a guy she knew for months, but not the person that is there for her all these years.

This post has been edited by SMB002: Jun 7 2016, 03:06 PM

long story short...
better move on

Yes, I cut her out of my life. Or else my future potential (might be non existence) love life might be affected.

she is so funnie

Demm feel

So deep in friendzone, we are almost like sis.

Yeah, I'm graduating by that time. And I developed writer block for my final year project, I'm lucky I could graduate.

The level of shrunken balls, is more than 101%

Yeah I know. I always think that being there for her is more important than myself.
One of the stupidest thing I've ever done.

now u learned that you cannot be solely ''friend'' with someone that you're attracted.
Doing so will make yourself full of shits
Agree to her terms and waiting like....?
Fucking no!
Make your intention clear.
You're born with a dick, when a dick erects, it's hard, straight, and your intent shall be the same!

This post has been edited by sokiahlee: Jun 6 2016, 11:49 PM

Congrat.

Well she did hits and mentioned just to be friends and you did get some experience to love someone.

Time to move on. You can found a better one who really into or care about you and not just get your attention like when they need you only look for you.

Focus on your dream, love can be found around your family, they are the 1st who care about you. Good luck on your next love life.

Forget about her and move on. Go pickup girls.

when you're not it, you'll never be it! regardless how much effort you've put in. cutting ties is a wise choice.... or just be plain cold to her from now on. You dont need her in your life anyways since she was the one who dragged you in. Why not hang out more often with the others in that "pack" hahaha

All of her friends knew about us, like I said the way I look at her is so obvious even our teacher could see it.
Btw, yes I'm still friend with them. Only cut her out.

What is a writer block? o.O

I am sorry to hear what you have experienced. Truth to be told, we all also have our own bad experiences. I guess, that is when you experienced something so bad that you realized that it's not worth to continue to hold on it and let it go. And also realized that sometime this world is indeed unfair.

Even rainbow and Sunshine do not last... but it will appears after a bad thunderstorm So please don't feel suicidal.. please never give up but seek for what is important for you. Think of what you want, what is your aim.. who is your dearest people... The hope surely still there... sometime things can be blessing in disguise...so always have a light in your heart even you have hit rock bottom

This post has been edited by LaVilla.: Jun 7 2016, 02:29 PM

Writer block is a disability where one could not write, mainly suffered by novelist.
Well, I'm still holding to my dreams. I have dreamed to be a scientist since I was a kid.
Currently aiming toward the path of physicist, nonetheless I still wish that there are someone to walk the path together.
But I understand, nobody will want to walk through the tough path with me, people just prefer to reap the fruit of your hardwork.

long story cut short, she thinks you are not the one for her.

you been friendzoned.

she wants attention, and come to you for emotional attention, that's all.

girls want to be chased, not show pity or give mercy to a quiet guy. this is usually so, because girls want a champion. If she see you alone and just want to look after you, means she just treat you as a friend.

I see. Thank you for explaining it to me

At least you are not at total lost and have a dream. I am glad to hear that ^^

In today's society in Malaysia.. still have people willingly to walk through the tough part with you, just that you have to pinpoint them out

Heh, I wonder what's the odd.
Of course there would be people like that, but it is very unlikely for us to actually met one.

Your faculty maybe?

I have met a lot of really impressive and motivated people in University ^^ They are really determine and progressive on what they are passionate for.

Not much female in science, even lesser for Master I think.

oh >.<

You aiming for master or doctorate?

Of course final aim is doctorate.
Physic rocks.

common for geeky guys to be foreveralone i'm one of them

geeky as in maths and science... not anime/tech nerds
encounter many girls claimed to love intelligent conversations. so i whip out quantum mechanics 101 ... they disappear

PFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTT FFTFFfffffffft

oversea or locally?

I used to have a physic tuition teacher who will include jokes into physic terms to make the class more entertaining.

This post has been edited by LaVilla.: Jun 7 2016, 04:55 PM

That being said, I'm interested in research regarding quantum teleportation.
The math behind it is so fascinating when I first solve it, it was like magic with math.

Currently working in KL, still in process of applying.
If you're a girl, let get a cup of coffee.

oh i see. applying locally or oversea?

via quantum entanglement? how you get pass the non-cloning law tho?
im not much into teleportation, but im more into quantum computing. but regardless they're both messing around with superposition state of a qubit

You need to look into the math, like I said "magic".
Totally no violation to no cloning theorem and special relativity.
There's a reason why Einstein hates quantum entanglement that much.

This post has been edited by SMB002: Jun 7 2016, 05:51 PM

Applying to oversea.

Which country? ^^

Currently I'm aiming to Taiwan, either National Taiwan University or National Tsing Hua University.

I see ^^ That is nice... although never been to Taiwan before but i have heard great stories from Taiwan. Just that i am not familiar with quantum physic stuffs.. sadly.

hmmm prolly cuz it's your research thus youre not disclosing the "magic" well it's just a hobby of mine as now im just a brain dead fool and counting numbers...

*nowadays more into neural networking as it was quite interesting too.. especially cognitive packets

This post has been edited by Bonchi: Jun 7 2016, 07:05 PM

Let's hangout and you will know more.

I'm not doing any research, just done my degree and working.
But you need to do the math by yourself to see the beauty, kind of like hiking.

i see.. then no break through lar.. i tot you came out with a new algorithm lol

haih.. welp sadly masters course offered to me isnt paying so well in terms of allowances... so i chose to work and aim to be /K 20K

Well, we just need to sacrifice for our dream.

make another dream LOL

You are there to fulfil her emotional needs, while she gets her sex from the boyfriend.
That's actually one reason why men "allow" their gf to see her guy friends (that he knows she doesn't take seriously ... because she never made a move on them all those years).
So you are benefiting their relationship at your expense.
Let's see how long their relationship lasts without the pressure valve - you. Stop being there for her, unless you are getting something out of it.
Remember, men and women should only get together when there is a mutual exchange of value.
She leaning on you, but not introducing her girl friends to you = SHE IS A USER.

No dreams are as great as making our world the better places.
Unlike politician who only talk about it, it is better to actually act on it.

Nah, maybe she just doesn't want to hurt me.
Anyway, I still need to get away. This kind of relation is toxic for me.

Why you "blue tick" me.
Anyway, regarding the statement of you're not familiar with quantum, what are you familiar with then?

Haha because i dunno what to reply.

I am curious about what you had said in the previous post of this thread.



Tell me more about this. How you plan to achieve such dreams by making our world a better place?

By expanding the limit of human kind's knowledge?
Perhaps it is hard to be great, but at least contributing something is better than nothing.
At least I am leaving something behind for future, instead than just work and earn money and become the slave of capitalism.

please discover a way to fold spacetime that'll be much more useful as compared to quantum teleportation as fabric of space n time is already proven and recently gravity waves

but you cant escape capitalism... in the end, they will become the sponsors for your research and as sponsors, they will expect result and you're still their slave hahaha.

That is extreme research, nobody will take you seriously for this kind of research. Except when you have something to show for.
Yeah, it is inevitable but at least we experienced lesser effect of it.

well not quite.. put it logically..these 2 factors could make it work.

see fabric of space time is well.. like a still water surface. whereas with gravitational waves, and object with a really high gravity could cause a ripple in that fabric when it's moving
maybe at least use maths to calculate the required parameters first hahahaha. then proceed to observe binary neutron stars

You sound like inspiring to become Einstein ^^

Not exactly, Einstein is overrated.
There are many other great physicists who were gone unappreciated.

The current that I knew of are Michio Kaku and Stephen Hawking that's it haha

😔..

Dem feel, so painful.

Yeah...indeed

owch
you need

Stay strong man. Trust me, time will heal you. Spend time often with your relative, hobbies or something fun. I have been through this. In the 2nd months you should adapt. Enjoy your life