Please be strong..a few years ago I used to have depression also..

First, u need to stop hating urself. U said that u hate urself for being so weak..please dont do that. What happened is not ur mistake. U are unlucky. Thats all.

If I am walking on the road, and suddenly a car hit me, and then i patah kaki, is it reasonable if i hate myself for being weak? No right? Why other people walk there ok, i walk there got accident? That means i unlucky la. Not my mistake also. Thats it. First step is stop hating urself.

The second step is to go outside. But want to go outside also must see the place. Dont go to pavilion la, klcc la, dont go there. Dont go to rich people place. U drive or ride motor slow2, go and see other place. Hopefully looking at different scenery will help to ease ur stress.

Third step is, u must promise urself that u will not let this depression eat u from inside. Meaning to say, u must find a way to vent ur feeling. Dont let ur emotion keep hold up inside u.

Vent. Go to befrienders and talk to someone there. If u tell someone ur problem, eventhough the problem is still there, at least u are doing yourself a favor, by not surpressing the feeling inside ur heart.

Next, u have to forgive urself. I dont want u to have the mindset, "if i have done something better, maybe I will not be in this position". NEVER have this mindset. What has past has past. U can't change it.

So why do you want to carry the burden of regret throughout your life? Put it down. Leave it. What ever fuck ups, whatever mistake that you might have done in the past, try to learn as much as u can from it, and then leave it past.

Dont carry it with you. Forgive urself. If I, a stranger accidentally step ur shoes, but i humbly said sorry and u really can see from my face i regret doing that mistake, U will forgive me right? So why is it u can forgive a total stranger, but u can't extend that generosity to urself?

Forgive urself for whatever mistakes that you have done, and never has any regret in ur heart.

And lastly, find a new hobby. Just try new things. Playing games, badminton, futsal, gym, yoga, aerobic class, travelling, anything. Please keep ur mind and ur body busy to the point that you are not thinking about the past, and u are not worrying about the future.

Please be strong, and please take one day at a time. That's what life is all about isn't it? Take one day at a time..

Take care bro/ sis..

This post has been edited by ridhwan.kamarul: Apr 8 2016, 08:40 PM