To be honest, after reading all the replies, I went down to mamak to smoke.
As i was sitting down, i asked the mamak guy to give me a pack of ciggarates.
when he told me the price, in my heart i was cursing it was expensive and irritated.
Then i stopped and it hit me....
The realisation that I would probably would never be able to own or experience driving a well renowned car due to my financial standing.
It took me 23 year to reach where I am now financially and i realised that i have always been and will always been an average mediocre person in this world.
The truth hurts. it does. heartbreaking.
With my 8K of earnings, logically speaking i should not and must not be even considering a car with a price tag above 100K.
with the 1/10th rule of thumb....i guess i will always be stuck with proton.
I might be wrong but sometimes i have to be grounded to the ground. reality hits.
Thank you for the replies I have received here.
a Final thought given by my friend while having the mamak session:
"Bro, I understand how you feel and what you want. But think about it for one second, Can a peasant be a king?"
I replied "yes, why not??"
His answer: "Nope, a peasant will always be a peasant no matter how much you clean, teach and mask him with the kings clothing's, he is still a peasant."
"strive and work harder. put more effort. this is what people normally say. what people dont tell you is not all gets to make it in this world. There are some whom no matter what would just be .... . Thats life"
THREAD CAN BE OFFICIALLY CLOSEDJust keep trying, work harder and smarter, you will surely improve.
And always remember there's always some one else higher/richer than you (unless you're Bill Gates at the moment), so don't get depressed, accept reality but stay positive and motivated. Even when you finally can be regarded as quite well to do/successful, still remember this so that you still stays humble and not show off with your success!