The problem with kron, is that basically He refuse to forgive.

That is what causes the cycle of bitterness to repeat for so many years.

That is why our Lord insist that we MUST forgive as christians because it can cripple our spirit.

Actually the word of God that inspired Paul to penned down the word Blessing in the context of serving or giving, it is not the blessing of self satisfaction or happiness.  No where does the Bible says that. I am zealous for the truth of God's word. If there is something that will help you and set you free, I will painstakingly explain with endeavour so that you can also taste the goodness of God and believe and receive the blessings yourself.

DUMC is right when they say you'll be blessed by serving. That is according to Hebrews 6:10. And as a church we should serve one another. This is according to Romans 12:6-8 with whatever gifting that God has imparted to you. Every Child of God has a gift.

Romans 12:6-8 (NIV)
. 6 We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith; 7 if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then  each; 8 if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.

If you look at how God has bless his people in reality and in the past and even in the recorded passages of the Bible, you'll understand that we have a Big Hearted God who does not just give for you to scrape by or to make you miserable. You have a very poor opinion of God's dealing with his people.

When Jesus multiply the 5 loaves and 2 fishes, was it not enough or more than enough? If you can answer that, you will know what you think of God is not true.

The following verses does not denote internal satisfaction or just happiness; they are tangible blessings.

Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) - For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Proverbs 19:17 (NIV) - Whoever is kind to the poor lends to the LORD, and he will reward them for what they have done.

Luke 6:38 (NIV) - Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

2 Corinthians 9:6 (NIV) - Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously.

Hebrews 6:10 (NIV) - God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.
The problem right now is just your bitterness against DUMC. You gotta let it go and free yourself  from this. if you want to move on to another Church, move on but have a right perspective of God's blessing. Don't downsize or downplay what God can or cannot do with the blessings stated clearly in the Bible.

All encompassing blessing that would include spiritual and tangible blessings. VERY Very Sure.

In verse 1-5 of 2 Corinthians 9 talks about Gifts given to the apostles by the Church, that is tangible.

And in this verses for example:

2 Corinthians 9:6-11

6 Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously.
7 Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.
8 And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
9 As it is written: “They have freely scattered their gifts to the poor;
their righteousness endures forever.”a
10 Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.
11You will be enriched in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.

Verse 7 is talking about tangible giving. if it's intangible there is no stress of "compulsion". God inserted the word Bread  tangible.

Well I wanted you to ask me the next question,, but but UW, you mean we don't have to repent?

Repentance in the Greek = Metanoya means Change of Mind. In the New Testament, the Right Point for Repentance is found in

Acts 20:21 (ESV) - testifying both to Jews and to Greeks of repentance toward God and of faith in our Lord Jesus Christ.

Because it brings out the best definition according to the Greek.

Repentance is a process of the Believers Life but it is by no means a prerequisite to qualify for Salvation. <--this is where we have missed it. It is something we need to agree with God (that it is Wrong), not to be use as a gauge or to perform to qualify for Salvation. (Pls read this carefully and not to misunderstand)

The right Way to approach God is like this.

We believe and confess Jesus is the Son of God.
We believe and confess Jesus as our Atonement for our Sins at the Cross.
We repent Towards God meaning, understanding God is for us, He Loves us and we need not fear God as in the OT way of Fear and Trepidation. But as a Father to a Son.
We agree that Sin is wrong.
We need to confess during the Sinners Prayer we have 0 ability to repent in our actions and cry Help Me God. BELIEVE that the Holy Spirit in us will do that sanctifying work.

That is the right way.

Many Christians circle got it wrong. They always emphasize "you must repent repent repent!". As if shouting You must repent, will enable to believer with the power to repent.

Repentance comes without us being conscious about it. I say this to be true "We become Holy by accident"  And The Meaning of Accident in this context pertaining to Holiness is;

A sudden event that is not planned or intended. ( A life of rest in Christ).
* And before anyone misunderstands me, Don't ever quote me saying we can sin as we like, I never said this. This is the same accusation levelled against the Apostle Paul in Romans 6:1

Yes and rest Easy your Salvation is borned by the Blood of the Lamb and not by your Acts of Repentance.

The acts of repentance is always going up and down but it is by no means qualification or disqualification to Salvation. This helps us to understand Hebrews 9:26 better.

That is the Right Doctrinal Exegesis.

Well the thing to avoid falling trap into this is

Deal at the root.
1. Ask God to remove the lust desire through the HS. It's no point to do fire fighting if this is still attached.

Next is to Deal at the surface
2. I believe 99.5% of time, temptation comes from the Internet. So Avoid Clicking if you suspect it's going to lead to whatever temptation. RUN AWAY is the Key. Actually it's just avoiding it with the Run Away mindset.

Yup.  Hang on to that principal Bro.