You're stronger than u think u are. Seeking help when you're down is not an easy thing to do. More so when you're supposed support system - family and friends aren't very supportive. But still, u have ur boyfriend who I'm sure is treating u well.

I think part of the healing process is admitting that you aren't okay, and seeking help for it. Which is exactly what u're doing now.

I've had mild cases of depression as well - stress from family n work n responsibilities. I grew up in an unhappy marriage too. My parents hardly speak to each other and the kids have to be the middle man.

I think it's important to keep active. For me, i love badminton too. And after my weekly badminton with my colleagues, I go out for dinner with them and feel incredibly happy, and I can't wait for next week for the next badminton session. Maybe it would be good for you to have some sort of a weekly activity that you really enjoy and make sure you do it every week. So when you're unhappy, focus your thoughts on that and look forward to it.

All the best to u!