I know exactly what you're going through. I myself am suffering from depression and I have anxiety disorder as well. Head out to Gov hosp to see psych. They'll give you medication and trust me it helps alot! But after a year or two, I suggest you cut down on the medication and slowly try to regain yourself again.

Im currently still trying to recover after 5 years of medication. If you refuse to go for professional help, the other best way is to pray. Praying helps alot as well. Or drive alone at night while listening to songs that will cheer you up. Good luck yea! Hope you'll recover and dont have to go through like what I had to go through.