It's normal for us as humans to justify our actions. No sane person likes to be wrong or be perceived wrong. It isn't my position to say what is right nor wrong, yet my question to you would be, could you have taken another choice than the one you took?
Yes, nothing can be done to undo the past - yet the future and today is still 'mold-able' for lack of better word. Given a choice, would you opt to perhaps make a different decision?
I do believe that deep inside a little part of you acknowledges that in this world of 6 billion people, divide half into women leaving 3 billion males (approximately) there are other males whom experienced similar if not exactly the same experiences you went through.
How did they cope with it?
Hitting the ball closer to home, this isn't just a male exclusively thing. Females also can and have suffered the same type of treatment. How did they cope with it?
Is vengeance really worth it?
For what gains Evangelistica, for what gains - vengeance?
Self satisfaction? The pride of life?
The old saying goes, pride comes before a fall - and pride and ego is a byproduct or result of your testosterone hormone. Yes, your pride was injured, your heart broken, your joy taken away, your dreams shattered, your hopes dashed and your feelings betrayed.
But so were the numerous other males and females out of the 6 billion population on this earth.
If others whom were as broken as you were could make different choices, you too have equal chance of making those choices, the deciding factor is
whether or not you wish to make that decision?Are you?
Yes.