Hey there, I had been experiencing OCD for quite some long time now since 2009. I didn't know what it was in back then until few years back I started to do some research on it. For the first time, I tried to type in whatever problems that I was facing and It turned out to be OCD. I was quite surprised that I was not the only one facing it but many many peoples out there are suffering the same thing as I am now. Of course the problems may be vary from a person to person.

At the very first time of experiencing OCD, I thought that I was a very weird person I kept repeating the things that I do. Even like touching something I repeated at least twice until I feel comfortable then I stop. This happened the same with my foot steps I kept walking on the spots that OCD calls me to repeat over and over again.

It is very hard to overcome those thoughts, if I don't do what OCD calls me to do then I will have a repetitive thoughts about something bad is going to happen to me or a person close to me.

After been knowing that it was the OCD that I was experiencing, the repetition of touching something and stepping on some spots have been greatly reduced but I'm still experiencing a little bit right now. But after that, other OCD problems risen.

But the major problem now with the OCD that I have been facing right Now is that my mind always try to create fake thoughts or events inside my mind that bothers me a lot. Then I have to like repeat or recall what I have done in the past in order to convince my self that those thoughts are unreal and fake.

Example that I have been facing now is whenever I close a bathroom door and unlock it after I have done my shower, in the midst of unlocking the door, all the thoughts will appear in my mind saying that I have not closed the door and I have to do something like keep on checking the door lock to see whether I have locked it or not. Even though I'm 100% sure that I have locked the door but still the OCD wants to find troubles with me. If I tried to unlock the door without thinking too much it just wouldn't worked. Cause it will create a fake thoughts in my mind again saying that I have not locked the door and I opened the door while I was showering. Damn it just damn it!!!

I just don't know what to do but kept on repeating every actions in order to convince my self and also to prevent OCD from creating fake events inside my mind. I just hate OCD so much I felt like OCD had been consuming most of my time just by repeating unnecessary actions and thoughts.

I hope there is someone that I can go to, to talk about my problem.

This post has been edited by funny duck: Nov 8 2015, 07:51 PM