This is called warfare training.

Sometime we just have to be soldiers for our Lord. 

erm dude, trust me when I say this, yes. I believe He does, I used to doubt Him, I used to think why is He punishing me. Trust me when I say this, I said I gave up. I wanted to tell God off and to be away with my salvation and to probably kill myself, I wanted to give in. Not to temptation, not to stress, but to utter fear, depression and to the enemy. Trust me when I say this, I fought for my soul and salvation. I'm not talking about lustful desires, I am talking with an actual spiritual warfare, spirit of fear and death and all sort of stuff that I wish no one would suffer but I know there are others who were far worse than I was.

After it all, I learnt the importance of holding back my tongue for in the past I speak without fear, my faith strengthens, my understanding of Him increased, and so did my love. I believe He does. Looking back, I welcome it because now I can go to another brother or sister and tell my testimony and hopefully, hopefully, it will help them hold on to faith a little longer, and hopefully save their soul. Do not sow the seeds of despair but yield to God. Let the Holy Spirit take over, I did and it felt great.

Consider it a privilege for going up the next level higher in training.

That means God don't see you as something small, spiritually.

But got more grace ....

Resurrection life is always manifested in death situations

Anything you want to know in particular?

why me? 

WWJD stand for what would Jesus do.

Indeed a loose canon claimed that bible is not from God but from men

Huh really? Are they Christians?

What he say about the Bible? 

Different Author will write from different perspective and thus it completes the whole picture.

If they're talking about the same thing then it depends on whether it's from Greek Aramaic or Hebrew language.

There are no contradictions in the Bible.  You can explain this to anyone who don't understand.

Worrying will drive you crazy. Worry is the problem and hindrance, I know you will say it's not easy but I also went through it.

I got family to take care also. I mean worse come to worse, you are already almost at rock bottom, worrying is not going to change your situation so why not stop worrying and dare to believe?

Being at peace is very important because it will help you to make better decisions. Wisdom can be prayed for anyway. The peace that accompany your decision can be a sign.

A sifu once taught me. Whatever decision we make in life, dare to fail. When we make our decision, we stick to it. Whether fail or success, we go through it.

Now there is a difference, even if we make mistake, we have God. and that means a lot of difference. He can restore even if the mistake is our own mistake.

Life is like that. God does not create us to be robots. We need to learn to make decision. God will not choose them for us.

My sifu add in one last statement: Be a Man.

I feel malu tat time bcos quite young, Was in my 20's when he gave that advice. And 20 years later, what he said, IMO is quite true.

If I were you, get close to God and complain as a child to a Father.

Father God you promise me...........

take this chance and spend time solid time with him.

Put a bible in front of you, close the door, spend time in meditation and quiet time, ask God to speak to you.

and who among us have nvr faced desperate times  ? ur circumstances can b down to a few reasons:

- God wans u to turn ur attention to Him........ur ENTIRE attention

- He's bringing u up to another level ( a good thing! )whr-by ur faith & trust in Him continues growing in strength    

- we simply live in a fallen world tat comes along wif all its hurts & problems

Take care. The Lord is most real as the resurrected One when we are at the bottom.

E.g. The Lord waited till Lazarus died and rot. The problem we are still too strong to survive.

I think the most important is the will of the daughter. If the daughter accepts me, eventually the father has no choice but to warm up to me.

Of course, I would respect him because he is the father of the girl I am going after. I will try my best to please him. But i can only go so far.

If he tries to abuse me verbally or ignore me, I can only put up a thickskin and not bother about him. I do want to please him, but I do not want to end up a doormat, sucking up to him all the time, I have my limits.

I also have my limitations, I am not very well verse in mandarin, I am a cantonese speaker but he is a hokkien speaker. He is not good in english. So how can i communicate with him?

I don't really know what happen in the background. I don't know her that well. I only gone out with her 4 times. She's not my partner, just a dating friend. Which is why it is very odd for me to take her mom and sis out. I notice also she's quite nervous about it. I am not saying that she's accepted me. I suppose maybe her mom wants to know who I am before allowing her daughter to go out with me. Not necessary its a sign of acceptance.

I going to be as respectful as I can but I obviously not going to suck up because I haven't reach the stage that I am accepted by her mom to give gifts. But i'll think of something.

Its not about worrying, its about preparation. Everybody does it. I mean if your company send you to a long trip to Japan next week, you be thinking what to pack and warm clothes to buy before? So I am just thinking if her mom would ask me really deep questions so I won't get caught off guard. Or who knows, she likely won't talk to me, and throughout the whole trip everybody talking in mandarin and I am a lamp post -  odd.

But yeah I try to relieve myself. Today I was at my office toilet, I felt very anxious, so I just made some funny faces in front of the mirror, made me laugh like nuts. I was making funny faces, in case on Saturday the mom try to bash me, how I would look like. Haha. Then my colleague came into the toilet, he saw me doing funny face. We both laugh..something to distract me from this.

39...why unstable. I think its normal to feel nervous on the day you meet your date's parents.

I recall my friend who went to Ipoh once every 2 weeks, book a hotel there to see his girlfriend, the parents at first not very welcome him. But now they are at peace with him, and he married her.