But Chow Yuen Fatt still got jobs flowing in spite of people saying that he also got a big hollywood ego.

Sigh, for first time sit at home do nothing..trying to do some work but can't focus. Depression setting in. Haiz...

Holiday is the time i go outing..with my ex.

So now home alone...make me feel depress.

I got go watch TV and surf LYN.

Boys at his age only knows about porn, sex and girls. How do I make him go to church?

I can't force him to do so.

Furthermore I am reluctant to return home, not yet anyways, he can study here for 4 years or follow my parents to China (worst case scenario). LEL.

dunno man. sometime watch a movie...reminds me of her. Yesterday I watch Girl Interrupted, then suddenly i remember about her.

Have you been through this kind of thing? Man, love sucks...I always wonder why God created man and woman to love one another. When things work out, its wonderful, but when things fail...the pain is 3 times the enjoyment you felt. Worst, its longer period.

I understand that we need to put God in center of life. But for me, i asking myself, am I chasing something that not exist? am I just sentimental and my requirements are unrealistic?

For me, to marry I have to have chemistry with the girl of my dreams...I want to be in cloud nine, yah, whenever we have differences we have to discuss and solve it, if we have arguments, both of us become even closer.

However, nowadyas I face world of realism. Is it true to marry someone, you don't have to feel chemistry for her? Just marry like that ah? Then slowly hope the chemistry to build up? I find always a mismatch. The girl I like, she don't like me.

Always like this, everytime i get into a rship, I like the girl but the girl slowly feeling disatisfied of me until break up due to incompatibility.

Yes I stopped chasing then I waited 9 years for the next to come. I was so excited I thought she was the one, but she didn't think I was the one for her. So naturally she dumped me.

I feel a natural challenge to my faith. I have to trust in God no question of that. If Abraham can trust God for 80 years before Sarai can bear his child, I have to do the same.

Ya know, it ain't easy...its very challenging. We got to wait upon the Lord. I can say I am only human, I suffered many failures upon failures..the light at end of tunnel still not showing.

We are thinking of letting him stay with our relatives. The one that he dislikes the most. hahaha...

That way, he'll learn to respect others.
Boys will always be boys. This time my parents will support me, because I have given up so much of time for family.

Why do you think I went away to Malaysia? LEL.
Of course it happened before. Boys will always be boys.

1. My Victoria Secret catalog are always missing. 
2. I would noticed that he locked his bedroom door after 10pm. 
3. The rest are too explicit to be listed here.

I know my brother won't like it when family members are not around him, he just wouldn't say "I love you" or "Thanks for taking care of me" in front of everyone but he'll do things for the family.

Yeah really hopeful. I pray that I don't succumb to sin of doubt and frustration.

God is in control of my destiny !

Yeah but I don't have Asian upbringing. Its only in Malaysia, that I've slowly learning Asian values.

Especially during CNY reunion dinner, everybody will have to wait for the seniors to come and eat first right?

I would sneak in and eat my food first before grandma, haha...Grandma so pissed! 

I know she's scolding me. lel. It was during my first year in Malaysia that it had happened.

Then when I received my "Angpow", I immediately opened it in front of grandma and waving the money in front of her.

Yeah, my first CNY was a disaster. Of course now I don't do those silly mistakes coz I learn the custom, lel.

At first I was thinking, hey grandma only gave me RM20. Then I realized, all the grandchildren received the same amount. 

Kinda. Mostly with my cousins. My uncle and aunty are working in Singapore, they only come back during the weekend.

cho tai ti?

Mine a quiet CNY too because grandma passed away last year but it doesn't mean that we shouldn't stop celebrating CNY.

I have finally bought some firecrackers..lel.

Ya I gotta run to...in office today working alone...foreveralone, haha.

You working already la, your granny should cut your ang pow allowance.

Say you in JB or KL? Since your uncle n auntie work in Spore.

Cho tai ti is a card game.

Both side of my grannies passed away, they were in their 90s...

My father side, I don't recognise most of my cousin children anymroe...anyway most of the uncles n aunties passed away

My mother side, uncles n aunties still around, but we not so united after granny's passing...always dispute who pay the bill for gathering.

My schoolmate passed away today from Dengue ;_;

And then more depressing news haih

http://www.charismanews.com/opinion/watchm...g-into-atheists

It was 5 years ago.

Yeah problem is nobody is paying the bill so ended up no reunion dinner.

I'm in KL.

See, that's what I don't understand about Asian culture. If nobody want to foot the bill, why don't just split the bill and everybody pay?
Well, he's not shy to express his love to his gfs.   

I'm a rebel without a cause. LEL.

Yeah, I did. I waved the angpow money in front of grandma and everyone. My mum was so embarrassed. 

My dad thought it was hilarious. hehe..

I thought CNY was like Christmas. You opened your present for everyone to see. 

Perhaps got reunion but have to see how.

My extended family have a mini war over some issues. Hopefully we can unite.

I know its not easy for anybody dude, including me. I only started dating last month. LEL.

It was a disaster too.

But I'm trying.

IDK how my suitor is. Only meeting him in June. 

Well, there you go. You got to have charisma n confidence too.

Well, so far no news of gathering.

The start of 2015 wasnt so bright...hopefully it will end well.

Well, at least I tried right? 

My parents told the guy's pastor about it...I was just asking for fun.

How would I know that my parents would send full photo of myself and my bio data to the guy. 

But I'm too young to get married. I'm still focusing on my career.

I tried b4...they will listen to me.

10 mths to go? That is quite fast the time will past. I don't think I will find one by then.

I have another issue to bring up.

My uncle is a Buddhist, so how do I convince him to follow Christ? Any ideas?

The thing is, I been praying to submit to God's will. It won't be easy. Do you know? Just because God has a plan to prosper you, does not mean you want to the goal. We humans have a tendency to be rebellious and want to achieve things our own way. For me, after losing my ex, she seem to be the ideal partner in my heart. Of course, she has her own shortcomings...but the time I spent with her was like the best things in my life...I never had somebody who was so accepting, listen to me, helped me so much, did all the little things for me. She then penned up all her complains about me, and unleash them on break up day. She completely changed the moment she signed the contract for her permeanent move to Singapore.

She really left an impression in my heart. I want to move on..its hard...sometimes the Devil put memories in my mind telling me "Oh she's with another guy, valentine's coming". Then through other people they say "OH she's found another guy"....I then place my hand on my forehead and hand, and say "In the name of Jesus, I rebuke and cast out all these memories from my head and heart". Then it goes away for awhile. An hour later, it comes back...its even more apparent in the early mornings..when i wake up...in one day, I receive like 15 to 20 attacks. I have to keep on praying in the name of Jesus.

I spoke to my brother about God's will for me. Even my cg prayed for me and say to me, you'll find another who will treat you better than your ex. Well maybe that's true, maybe not. God's plan may be for me to remain single. Or His choice of my future partner may not be what I seek. My ideal partner (influence by the impression left by my ex), may be contravention to God's choice for me. THe chemistry may not even be there, to start with. I really don't know.

So I am praying to God for my mindset to change...to submit to His will. In the past I am very rebellious and disobedient towards God. I always want to do things my own way. Usually what God provides me, I felt disappointed, the job, the university and potential life partners. My heart always thinks the other way around is better.

Ya know, life is hard, its challenging. One moment you think you are very happy because you got something, I tell ya, do not rest on your laurels, because it can be taketh anytime and when this happens your whole life goes tumbling down.

Nice book. I will check out the bookstore if they have any or maybe I can order it online.

Thanks dude.

Wow, your friend married at a young age. I wouldn't know if I'm ready for that. I just have to depend on God for that. 

Carlo J

Its not Pastor Peter Cioccolanti. Its Steve Cioccolanti.

Steve has a ministry in Australia. He's half Thai / Australian.

It seems that there's people who claimed that this Steve is a false teacher..

http://watchmansbagpipes.blogspot.com/2014...r-to-avoid.html

Anyway let me read the book first before I give it to my uncle. 

oh gosh, there has been too many robberies nowaday, next time if any of you encounter such thing please let go of your stuff or get someone to go out with you

how is your friend condition? still critical or recovery? will pray for him

Lord God,
We commit our brother into your living hands and we pray for his swift recovery.
We know you are in control of the situation and as he undergoes surgery, grant the surgeons skill and competence to do an exceptional job.
We pray for the members of his family that you will comfort them even in this time of trauma.
We ask that you restore our brother back to his family whole again so they will see your goodness and rejoice in you. If these family meets do not know you yet let our brother's recovery be a testimony of your love and an invitation for them to come to know you.
We ask this in Jesus' precious name. Amen.
Carlo, where was this place that the incident happened?

Did he offend them somehow? Someone they boh song when you try to do good things also.

did he offend anyone lately?

Please pray for protection and justice. My friend Mavvy is under attack by violent neighbours. They beat up her dad and stuff.

Their dog killed their kitten, and when the dog get nabbed to the pound they got mad. Now threaten to sic a local gang on them.

Police arrived but the neighbour got more 'witnesses' (read: fellow liars) who pin the blame on my friend instead. They kena assaulted but kena blamed pulak wtf.

Without evidence the police can't prosecute. They said have to record the next assault.