On ldr for 4 months already. She's from sg and im from MY. Never met before, but going to next week...

This is my first time too! Lol
Hope everything is going well...
Tbh we're kinda diff, im kinda introvert type while she's like the opposite eventhough she always say she's kinda introvert too... Lol

Thanks!!! We will

Up till yesterday only i realized im probably just a spare tyre, we were supposed to meet tmr for the first time. But she sent me "I have a boyfriend, i dont think we should talk anymore, don't ever reply or msg me again" last night.
It hurts so much, because of her, I've planned to throw everything i have here and go all the way to SG to work. I know its just a 4 months relationship, some ppl might say its just a v short time, no need get so sad over it, that might be true. But its still so hurt when you try to commit so much and it ends like this.

I got some information from one of her rl friend which i cant 100% confirm if its legit or not and found out that alot of things my "ex-gf" told me were actually lies. I actually get kinda mad and hurt. But I've been thinking for awhile, and decided to tell her that lets get back to be just normal friend, i hope thats the best course of action and probably i would feel better and get over it sooner.

Yeah, ive tried to put in too much during early stage, im not thinking straight too, I just blindly believe whatever she said eventhough it sounds suspicious, thats what i supposed to get...
Im trying to get over this, i tried to keep myself busy during the day, but when i went to bed, I would wake up in the middle of the night thinking about how i got cheated/played, blablabla, sometimes i cant go back to sleep, sometimes yeah i fall asleep but then will probably wake up again in the next one or two hours.