I want to heal and get on with life as soon as possible. I pray God will grant my request to meet more people.

I am still reeling from the shock of the break up, it happen so suddened. Sometime in life, we can see sudden turn of events that end everything.

Yes, I need my heart to be guarded. I been praying and pettioning to God.
I asked my cg cellies for advice, can't help to think that I blundered so badly without realising.
She is really truly one of a kind, a really nice girl.
One cg member said that honesty was very important to her, she say if her was waiting for her husband, and call him, he say he is in eg Bangsar but actually he still driving in KL, she would take it very seriously as dishonesty.
I can't believe I accidentaly made a white lie, that screwed up the whole rship, about me washing my bike outside my house, but it was my friend;s house. One day I took her to my house, she was fuming angry because my house was different from the picture.
I truly screwed up. Not that I was cheating or what, but I was dishonest. I dunno why I did it. And also I screwed up when she was overseas, and needed my help to move furniture. Well, singapore to be exact. I failed to respond to there to help her. Sigh..I can't believe I made such silly mistakes in the rship. It was piling up all the mistakes.

Yeah I guess I get your point about that. For my first ex, she was ok with me, when I told her a white lie that i was late. Like when I was driving in Bangsar and was late to pick her up at Dsara..I lied to her that I was already in Dsara..white lie. She somehow found out about that..but didn't make it a big issue.

Ya agreed if she truly had more feelings for me, she would have overlook and forget about the house issue.

I guess we both can relate on this because we both face challenges of being single.

Hmm regardless of religion?

For me its very difficult to link up with a non christian, our values are so different. I am good friends with quite a no of non christian girls who are single but I just could not fall for them. Although we can talk about work and other issues, but somehow I felt in my heart those other things like marriage, divorce, helping the poor, caring for others, forgiving....they are just miles away from my thinking.

And you know the bible did say not to have unholy yoke with unbelievers. I do know though from history that you have your own point of view, therefore I prefer not to go into a debate with you on that.

But I was surprised I could get cut off like that.

The bike incident, I try to relive it again n again...n still not understand why i say it was my house. I guess maybe she can't trust me in a LDR if I say these white lies undeliberately. She saw my gate was different, so she cut me off completely and gave a long laundry list of reasons why we should not be together. She comes from a very strict christian family. I suppose I blew it big time.

Its not as if I cheated on her, I never cheat on her. Ahh, I blundered big time.

Yeah, my ex gf works for a company that has products all over the place...so everywhere I go I can see its products and services...I cannot forget her...because of those darn advertisement billboards.

Me too, I am praying about them. I am not getting any younger...I just not sure if I should wait for the next one to come....which could mean another 10 years...

I dunno, i just get that impression because she's very careful about her boyfriends.

I just want to ask you, when you want to be in a relationship, do you just want to like get settle down or you want to feel like you're in cloud nine? I think the answer is latter, right? That you want to feel the chemistry..so its not as easy as ABC to just click with someone...

I am trying to relax...but it just hits me...

Mortal Kombat and Final Fantasy X2.

Good girl coz bad girls go to hell. Right UW?

Org asli, food bank, usher, youth, organise camp, treasurer.

Well maybe..who knows

Aiya more than one church r involve in the org asli ministry la.

I dun serve all the time. I have to admit I am inconsistent n not as hungry serving as I should be. Right now I am in hibernation stage. I ask my fren whether he can help me back into the ministry just as a part time helper...

I am just as bad as an attendee...well albeit a wounded one...I feel like an injured animal...

Let's hope that you're right, because I am far from being a saint.

Wow, I'll read that later. So they are like Gypsy people in Europe.

One day I want to visit Vietnam. I like to experience different culture, especially the tribal dance.

vietnam is comunist country. last time i ask ppl to receive JESUS they blur hahaha ... there is 1 pastor house arrest cuz spreading gospel

ar hahaha....My Geography sucks dude.

I once thought Malaysia is an island near Japan. 

OMG lol  

Tom Yam is from Thailand but i dislike Tomyam too spicy and sour no thanks not my type

Cats and dogs? EEEEEeeeeeewwwwww....

Speaking of beef noodles, my girlfriends brought me to this famous beef noodle shop in KL.

I love it dude! The aroma, the smell, but I hate the internal organs! Yuck...

Hmm I dun think serving all the time make the people's face happy. Its a great challenge. more like seeing your own face smile...when you help other people without receiving anything back.

You mean Chinese has sub-dialects? I thought its only Mandarin?

No, no..Its not fried. Its watery.

nah i don't think so this is it, she mentioned toad balls type

Maybe the "not to be served but to serve"...verse tells us not to expect something back from people when we serve. We serve because we r happy n honoured to serve...correct me if I am wrong.

But bubur is porridge right?

bubur cha cha.. what is that? Dancing porridge?

Yeah but certain ministries...once you serve a permanent ministry, its hard to let go...the leaders need you badly and then sometimes you can get bogged down. Like some of my friends at children ministry...they need to work on every sunday...if their day time job needs them to go to office, very hard to find replacements.

Ohhhh...So they become Muslim right? So they have their own desserts?

Serving too many ministries can get burn out. Have to be careful.