it's called convincing ... pressing forward mentality... winner attitude
only negative ppl called it "you hit me and I hit you"

Yes, I need my heart to be guarded. I been praying and pettioning to God.
I asked my cg cellies for advice, can't help to think that I blundered so badly without realising.
She is really truly one of a kind, a really nice girl.
One cg member said that honesty was very important to her, she say if her was waiting for her husband, and call him, he say he is in eg Bangsar but actually he still driving in KL, she would take it very seriously as dishonesty.
I can't believe I accidentaly made a white lie, that screwed up the whole rship, about me washing my bike outside my house, but it was my friend;s house. One day I took her to my house, she was fuming angry because my house was different from the picture.
I truly screwed up. Not that I was cheating or what, but I was dishonest. I dunno why I did it. And also I screwed up when she was overseas, and needed my help to move furniture. Well, singapore to be exact. I failed to respond to there to help her. Sigh..I can't believe I made such silly mistakes in the rship. It was piling up all the mistakes.

sigh justnow I talked to a friend, he tells me that I have to increase my taste for older women. I tend to like women in their early 30s...but he tells me that I should meet women closer to my age. But I dunno why women closer to my age, I dun feel attraction towards them. I mean like women 30-34 I am ok. Yeah I know I am in 38-39. Ya think I am too much?

I felt a bit discouraged justnow. I now this is not really relevant to your church debate.

LOL 

Then the Lord Jesus surely have a negative mentality:

Matthew 20

26 It shall not be so among you; but whoever wants to become great among you shall be your servant,

27 And whoever wants to be first among you shall be your slave;


Oklar ..... that's it from me ....

Yes the song reflects how I feel. I ask God for forgivness over my struggle to overcome my sadness, ask him for solace and reveal his greater plan for me. I truly am confuse and startled as to how things happen. Although my friends tell me there are people worst off than me like the flood victims in Kelantan and the families of the QZ8501 crash victims. I know the magnitude of my problem is not so bad and I can count my blesssings. But I am confuse as to why my heart is still down.

Forgive me if I sound like a dufus. But I will be brief...its like this, she treated me so well for 1 year, we spoken about marriage and stuff like that. Then she got the job transfer from her dominating boss. She asked me if she should take the offer. I told her because I care for her, I will support whatever decision she made. But I told her if I were to make the decision, I would not want her to take the promotion. But she in turn said to me, that if she doesn't take then the company will try to force her out and she wanted the job experience anyway. Then during the break up she blamed me for not stopping her. I am puzzled.

Er ...  are you a little kid to have "you hit me and I hit you"?

same answers lah tinaaaaa.... have you read my reply to UW ?

killing, bribing, lying all same... Ask HS first before doing it... still same principle...
if i typo please correct me...

until today my convictions stays... if i do change... i will update...

Not as bad as before.

I hope to be doing activities soon. I pray for more exciting year 2015 for me. 2014 was quite uneventful...I thought everything was going well for me..then it ended sour at the end of it.

The Song is about God lifting you up from the oppression of darkness.
If you heart is still down, keep coming to Jesus.

On another note about your friend, she seems like the type of person that depends on everything that you do to woo her.
Looks 1 sided in my opinion. It takes 2 hands to clap for successful relationship.

I hope you don't take offence but majority of girls in Malaysia are generally like her. It's a bit of princess syndrome.
You got to find someone who's willing to come in and meet you half way.

Yes, I have. You are still stubborn. Is your ego as BIG as your balls? Please don't EVEN THINK of answering that. I don't wish to know.

Its a metaphor. Ok, now I'm putting your in my "Ignored List" coz you are really crazy.
Good to hear.

Same here. 2014 was uneventful for me. I broke up with my bf. But I moved on and 2015 is looking great.
What?! Sometimes I have that too.

ha ha. That's what I thought as well.

Worse part is, if you quote from the Bible, he will discredit the Bible as well.

Right now, I can see, He'll use anything, there are no rules, anything goes.......... just to be in the conversation, even though it doesn't make sense.

Sigh, never met such immature grown up person like this.

Watch out blood pressure ya   

What?! Sometimes I have that too.

If de is a boxer, he's the type that would hit you below the belt, while the referee is not watching. hahahaha...

What's the point really, doesn't help the relationship. Only makes it worse.
Sigh, I was thinking back waay before you came in, ppl are already calling him a loon. I didn't take much notice about it, then I remembered how he responded to them as well......Now I'm a bit convince, it's real.

I remember he said something like blocking those fellas out causing them not able to login by using our Lord's Name.

lol.

Its part of my personality that I need to get rid off. lel.

I know, its something I need to pray to God about.

  Whoa, this I need to check out. What thread version is this?

Nvm, I'll check it out tonight. hahaha.....

So those people still can't login? 

One of them came back. haha. De oh De.....

Really? hahaha...Looks like his prayer didn't work.

I have met some Indonesian Christians before in Holland, they were quite pleasant and friendly.

I remember you said something about your ex room mate dabbling in black magic?

I wonder De ever got involve in any magic or not, he said something about levitation spell. If he has, then I can next guess why all this crazies are happening.

I remember you said something about your ex room mate dabbling in black magic?

I wonder De ever got involve in any magic or not, he said something about levitation spell. If he has, then I can next guess why all this crazies are happening.

Black magic will make folks irrational?

Apakah bapak De ni bisa mengguna ilmu sihir Harry Potter? 

Injil Kristen sudah bilang ngak boleh guna ilmu-ilmu hitam.

There are no distinction in magic, whether white magic or black magic.
The supernatural occurance are all rooted from demonic source.
That is why God forbids practises of any type of supernatural magic.