Mar 3 2015, 06:32 PM
QUOTE(kagamistar @ Mar 3 2015, 01:25 PM)
i know i may sound--ha tula kau lebihkan creation daripada creator..
i just want some support from u guys..
help me to start over again..start from beginning again..
tapi mcm terlampau paranoid to people..
i dont know how to make friend and now parents keep asking about bila nak kahwin..dah ada bf x..
i faced (still facing?) depression last year..and yeah feeling better..
but somehow sebab i love the person too much...sometimes i feel the sadness again and again..
yeah i did cried..though i thought i am okay..
maybe because i m just alone.but i keep telling myself i am not alone..
i have allah.i have parents.i have my bestfriend..
yet lastly macam useless je that mindset sebab i ll back to my hoping to the person
i did have instagram since the kaunselor told me why u must shut off ur media social..at least u have friends to talk and stalk to..then the person pun ada insta and my friend pula keep update gambar with the person although i knw my friend just want to be universal and she is on my side although she friend with the person..
i just hoping that i can let go and put faith on allah,
not thinking things that make me depress and lose myself again
i want to be better..
i dont want people/creation drag me down until i forgot that i have the creator..
i just want to be better...
i feel you. seriously. i just want some support from u guys..
help me to start over again..start from beginning again..
tapi mcm terlampau paranoid to people..
i dont know how to make friend and now parents keep asking about bila nak kahwin..dah ada bf x..
i faced (still facing?) depression last year..and yeah feeling better..
but somehow sebab i love the person too much...sometimes i feel the sadness again and again..
yeah i did cried..though i thought i am okay..
maybe because i m just alone.but i keep telling myself i am not alone..
i have allah.i have parents.i have my bestfriend..
yet lastly macam useless je that mindset sebab i ll back to my hoping to the person
i did have instagram since the kaunselor told me why u must shut off ur media social..at least u have friends to talk and stalk to..then the person pun ada insta and my friend pula keep update gambar with the person although i knw my friend just want to be universal and she is on my side although she friend with the person..
i just hoping that i can let go and put faith on allah,
not thinking things that make me depress and lose myself again
i want to be better..
i dont want people/creation drag me down until i forgot that i have the creator..
i just want to be better...
masa cuti sekolah tadi kan banyak kenduri, even my friends are getting married. and my mom start to nag asking me to go out(because i stay indoor too much), find a good man n get married. i don't mind my mom nagging, i get used to it already, but my mom makes my aunties lecturer me about marriage too... "kahwin best, nanti dapat anak comel2, bla3..." everyweek going back hometown for relatives wedding, they will talk about marriage.. its really2 stressful, and scary too. one of my aunt said "kenapa tak nak kahwin?" and laugh!! SHE LAUGHED!! T.T i felt so embarrassed at that time. i just keep quiet because i think it was useless to explain further coz they will never understand when i said "its not the time yet".. why everyone is very kalut asking me to marry?? 26 tahun tua sangat ke?
im sure there is someone for me out there, it's just that i haven't found/met him... can't they (family) wait a little longer??
ps: im sorry that i sound like complaining here... unlike kagamistar, i don't have counsellor.. n i need space to let it 'out'.
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