assalammualaikum! hah

marilah mnjalankan ibadah berlandaskan al-quran dan sunnah

i know i may sound--ha tula kau lebihkan creation daripada creator..

i just want some support from u guys..
help me to start over again..start from beginning again..
tapi mcm terlampau paranoid to people..
i dont know how to make friend and now parents keep asking about bila nak kahwin..dah ada bf x..

i faced (still facing?) depression last year..and yeah feeling better..
but somehow sebab i love the person too much...sometimes i feel the sadness again and again..
yeah i did cried..though i thought i am okay..
maybe because i m just alone.but i keep telling myself i am not alone..
i have allah.i have parents.i have my bestfriend..
yet lastly macam useless je that mindset sebab i ll back to my hoping to the person

i did have instagram since the kaunselor told me why u must shut off ur media social..at least u have friends to talk and stalk to..then the person pun ada insta and my friend pula keep update gambar with the person although i knw my friend just want to be universal and she is on my side although she friend with the person..

i just hoping that i can let go and put faith on allah,
not thinking things that make me depress and lose myself again

i want to be better..
i dont want people/creation drag me down until i forgot that i have the creator..
i just want to be better...

i did asked...but maybe they afraid that if things not going well..i will blame them for that..so better find for urself.
im 26..thanks..thats why i think i really need to share this kind of problem in this thread rather than cupid corner.
somehow cupid corner also okay..but back to the creator..need support that remind me about the creator
thanks

are u joining the halaqah or read by ur own....
im thinking of joining halaqah but i cant commit to attend like selalu since i have to travel a lot..
and im just an ordinary person...some halaqah is too serious kadang2..
i did read islamic books to help me..maybe because im alone thats why kadang2 fikiran tu bercelaru because i sit alone think alone..but somehow i do feel at least i m a fighter because im alone..im not the one yang depend on people dah although still sad..but at least..allah shows the sign the creation can drag u down but if u hold to allah insha allah u are on the right path..i hope im on the right track after things happened.

thanks!it is wise word..and i do hope i will stick with ur advice.i hope that in future things will get better..i may not see those things now..but at least i hope i m on right track and will not be in wrong route again..so many past mistakes.should not be repeat again in future insha allah

thanks! i did listened to the utubes also...but bila ada trigger je thats why im feeling down with other things yg make me stress juga..
but i really hope 1 day i dont care sangat what other did to me...1day i only care about what allah's commands
thats what i put my motto to be better..not perfect..just want to be better.

i met kaunselor last year sebab i do not know where to share..so i met the university's punya kaunselor.my friend said i was moderate depression-takkan nak depend on ubat2 yang bukannya keluarkan kau dari masalah kau.so find a way to buang depression tu at least...so thats one of the ways that i think i should do to get out from depression
i did share with close friends and geng....but must remember that not all them want to know ur problems dear.some of them just want to have fun like watching movies..and who cares at all what happened to u..besides i know they are working...so must be tired of listen to the same issue over and over again..
thats okay i think we are quite same...in the same boat with the same age haha.
siapa tak nak kahwin..but i do not know where to find the guy..semua pun nak zuriat and teman...

kawan laki pun boleh kira puluhan je (i mean 20orang je not like 90orang ke beratus2 kawan haha)
and im not really closed to kawan2 laki..friends ramai.but the one that closed pun dah kahwin adala.
or should i say tak ada dah.haha
im sure there must be a guy for us insha allah..that not playing around anymore..
tapi kata orang mana nak dapat kalau tak usaha...sigh..
honestly memang im indoor person also..i just can doa dipercepatkan jodoh saja yang the one that may guide me to allah...

dah apa tu??? umurnya
naah bukan laki

just read ur post.
insha allah.i will try.thanks for reminding me.

Insha allah everything ll be ok ..

my uncle suddenly tanya

KENAPA KATA ROKOK TU MEMUDARATKAN.MANA BOLEH! LEPASTU MAKANAN NI SEMUA MEMUDARATKAN LA (dia tunjuk jari telunjuk dekat my roti tisu)
i cant explain well since i tengah marah sebab he paksa me go out teman him tengok bola..
RUPANYA BOLA TAK ADA....sigh
then i said;ha memudaratkan la kalau dah makan makanan tak sihat.makan berlebihan.

apa saja yang memudaratkan diri macam lukakan diri sendiri-haram..potong2 diri tu.lukakan diri.bunuh diri

but i think i didnt explain well..he said manaboleh rokok haram or harus ke apa sbb manada mati on the spot

it is so hard on explaining those thing to these such people...tak tahula macamna zaman nabi2 boleh kan bersabar..astghafirullah.
but the good thing sebab tak ada bola. i boleh balik awal and tidur rather than terpaksa berjaga di mamak to teman him smpai pukul 2 3 pg.alhamdulillah
(my uncle belum peluk islam lagi b4 any1 tiba2 cakap my uncle murtad ke apa)

Why dude?
I just share what happened on me at 12am.when my uncle asked things about haram and perkataan memudaratkan.i know some dudes kata rokok harus.my uncle argue la kata vape at melaka haram.then dia cakap pasal secret recipe dah tarik halal tu haram macammana.
Im not from pious+islamic families.i have mix families with various beliefs and religions...

Just sharing je dude.sorryla kalo kena cancer.kalo apa yg i share memudaratkan..xpe je ignore my post bro.tq:)