hahaha. it's normal to be despised when you are using that weapon. no one likes it except the smart pistol users themselves.

in your case though it is perfectly understandable. i personally had often suggested my friends to use it when they started playing titanfall in order to accelerate their learning curves. once you are familiar with the game though, it is recommended for you to experiment with other weapons in order to further grow your skills.

just try not to be too dependent on the smart pistol. it is easy for a person to abuse it as it is the best shortcut for someone to appear more skillful than he actually is.