Not everyone though.. some people are born with it. Some people went thru a serious case of depression and got it. At least I know I have it when I met my psychiatrist last time. He said it came from the gens, from family or something like that.. so I'm not sure.

Talking about recover, I think I'm still in the process of recovering. Got off my medication last year, now surviving without pills. Kinda hard to control my temper and behaviour, but trying. Sometimes really burst out and argue lor...

Oooo... long time din come here though .. hi everyone

Doc said weight loss in such a short period is not normal, in fact, its unhealthy. So, I went through several checkups with the doc and he confirmed that I have clinical depression.

He advised me to move out from current house to change a new environment, etc.

I'll recover..

Bipolar disorder... aww, thats even worse than my case. Get well soon.

Yea...



Anyway guys.... she smsed me last few days. Some sort of.. apologized to me for leaving me. And told me that she likes someone else now, so she cant do anything. Somehow, when I received it.. I cried. It's like I'm trying to recover.. but suddenly a sms like this came. It hits me painfully. I replied.. "I'll be okie.. I'll learn to live my life without u.. I'll be strong.. I'll step out.. I'll recover on my own.."

Sigh..

^^try and try...

it is NOT normal for normal people....but Normal for people breaking-up. And it is unhealthy. It is expected from people breaking up and having depression. So what miyoko said is true....it is normal for people who just broke up to lose weight...
but it is abnormal to healthy human being.

U shudnt have replied at all.
Or just a reply like.... "ok"
or... "thanx"

Hmm.. but there's no more, after the sms. I think I can handle all these by myself now.

dont think too much. as i always told to myself & my friends who just broke up, sometime god dont want to see you suffer in the future so god decide the break up between you and your partner so that you can find a more suitable 1 in the future.

jdreamer,
yeah, quiksilver have replied what i wanted to say. it's absolutely normal to lose weight post-breakup. just take your time to recover and eventually, you'll gain back your normal life without her.

well, your sms to her sounds like you are still devastated. anyway, since you have already replied, no point regretting it. now, just stay away from her for some time because every single words that she say hurts you very much. when she call, you can choose to not pick up the phone and when she sms, you can choose to delete without reading it. the is ABSOLUTELY NO OBLIGATION on you to talk with her nor reply her. however, you ABSOLUTELY HAVE AN OBLIGATION to heal yourself. so, if you think contacting with her will not help in your healing process, then by all means, dont contact with her. as for me, i think you should stay away from her for some time, until you heal. because you really do sound very hurt of whatever she say or did. i couldnt understand why she still wanna pour salt to your wound by telling you AGAIN that she like another guy. this, i think is a bit immature. however, things have been done and couldnt turn back. so, just take the pain as a push to let go of her and the relationship. be strong, ok?

you've got us here.

That's why I love this place

we are kind of like so close with each others, huh? anyway, suiteng, you ganbatte in conquering your bipolar disorder, ok? you've got us here too... long time didnt hear from jorineb. how is she?

Oh,ya..I forgot to wish suiteng..Hope you recover fast k.

Yeah Suiteng...hope u get well fast....

Can u tell me about ur symptoms and why the doctor diagnosed u as having bipolar-disorder?

im worried i maybe have it too....
Tengs...

And oh yeah....do u guys do gatherings? for those living in Mesia i mean....lol.

I'm also not sure how I was diagnosed oh. Coz last time I remember that I have attempted suicide before, but failed. I dunno how many times liao... then doctor said that I have attention span problem, inability to listen to people.. in a way it means stubborn lah.. I think. But I dun really remember how it goes..

I just know that when I was on medication last time, I was a workaholic. Also, ppl say I cold hearted haha..

That's why I stopped medication. Now at least I'm like human a bit. Thanks to my honey..

Oh ya, jorineb is doing fine. She's working now, kinda busy so seldom online liao.

Time to organize another gathering huh? The last gathering was at Bkt Bintang area only 4 ppl turn up

really? i did feel suicidal before....but never did anything....
so i hurt myself physically. kinda when my hands or feet hurts, i wont feel the pain in my heart.

I oso got very worried...depressed easily....

Shud i go for a check-up?

U guys did have a gathering?Who turned-up?
Maybe ill join u guys one day...thinking of going back this October...for one week...Just when my love is having her holiday....Coz she wont be celebrating Raya, i guess maybe can spend some time with her....

Thanx a lot u guys....

i wan report in.. my one at taiwan.. XD

did i hear someone mentioned about gathering ? let's go to miyoko's place

yeah, we do have a gathering but a sad case that i couldnt attend it. well, i'm always afraid of pain, so i dont dare to cause any wound on myself one. hahaha...

anyway, quiksilver, i think you only feel like that when you are hopeless, right?

wei... firewire, coming to my place means going to your place lah...

erm... did i just made our relation sounds fishy and complicated? i leave out for you to explain lah... hahaha...

but i always feel hopeless....
i just did samting wrong to her just now....
now she bad mood with me....
im so hopeless....

wah? firewire? u ?
am i missing something here? lol

e.. no one welcome me one...

coz dont understand what u say liao....