guys, lol! 20 hours more to confess, haha!!! I didn't dare to hold her hand without saying anything, I think it will make her confuse, and to those who say rule 1, never confess, well, I agree too, but sometimes you gotta express how you feel, right?

it's ok, I totally get your idea, I am not 100% happy though becoz I have the same thought like you, and I also have the same feeling like you think I should have, that is
the feeling of insecure whether she really does accept me or not
but it's ok, time will prove everything, I will try my best as a lover, whether she appreciate or not, that is another matter, I have no power over that, all I know is that I am in such a fragile situation where she might not satisfy even if I did my best, but then, in the end, I can only answer to myself that I should and I will try my best, because in the end of the day, whether she still accepts me or not, I will not feel sorry for myself.
on other news, I notice that the way she look at me when it's just me and her and we one gang hang out is totally different, is this normal?