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Pendapat/perasaan aku tentang isu ini.
I'm not saying I've contributed a lot to the /k/ dota guild, but I was genuinely and sincerely committed into making friends and bringing all of the dotards together to become one big family.
You guys know kan I used to be so mysterious sampai jumpa any /k/tards pun taknak. This year I wanted to change, nak jumpa orang, wanna sincerely make friends. That's why although I have ZERO experience tentang gathering apa semua, when Haters_Gonna_H8 suruh aku buat gathering, I was VERY reluctant at first. Tapi I still put effort to do it, sebab I feel like all of you guys are friendly people. I really want to make friends with you people.
Bila aku dapat tahu ada whatsapp group (dengar kata ada fb group jugak),tapi aku tak kena invite, of course I feel left out sebab aku tak kena invite. Of course aku rasa terkilan, first gathering aku plan, second gathering apa pun, suruh aku jugak yg plan. Gathering apa2 pun, raya ke, yg jauh nun kat selatan pun, aku semangat je datang, sebab I really want to make connections with all of the dotards and make sincere/genuine friends tak kira la yg jauh ke dekat.
Masa kat johor tu, aku rant la apasal aku tak kena invite whatsapp group. Lepas tu dpt tahu no women allowed. Yg paling best, boleh pulak masa gathering johor tu ada yg dok gelak2 depan kitorang kat lunch table tu pasal conversation dlm whatsapp group tu, lepas tu bila ditanya "korang gelak psl apa?", semua cakap "takde takde pape".
Sedih sial orang buat macam tu kat aku. Dari jauh aku dtg nak jumpa korang, lepas tu korang dok gelak2 pasal something yg aku tak tahu, gelak2 pasal a totally different conversation padahal ada je yg boleh disembangkan kat lunch table tu.
Aku rasa macam bangang sangat bila aku sorang je yg semangat/beria ia nak jumpa budak2 dota sana sini, nak datang/buat gathering sana sini, padahal korang just simply leave me out of your 'bro clan' just because i'm a lady.
Tengok la, sejak ada whatsapp group tu, thread dah tak gerak laju macam dulu dah. Sunyi je. Kalau dulu apa2 yg korang bincang semua tulis dalam thread, so org yg x follow sgt pun sometimes boleh relate or baca or dapat tahu. Sekarang dah tak dapat masuk group, orang yang NAK follow and NAK relate cannot do so because they don't get invited.
Kalau setakat nak sembang lucah tu, apa sgt la yg aku heran. You all also saw how i post in /k/. Kalau nak sebar d*** pictures amongst the guys pun, it's not like ALL men are ok with d*** pictures in the first place.
So aku faham dewi's suspicion. When you think you are THAT close with a group of people, in the end you don't get invited simply because of one trivial reason, of course you'd naturally suspect people are talking behind your back. Lagipun, if there's nothing to be scared of, why not post kat thread je? Kenapa nak hush hush kat whatsapp group?
So I was very disappointed at some of you people because of this. Itu sahaja.
Takpelah, lepas ni I will slowly fade off from you guys punya 'bro clan'. No need invite masuk whatsapp group ke apa. Tak guna kalau kita beria ia nak be 'one of you' guys padahal orang pun x sudi for me to be inside your 'clan'.
It's nice meeting you guys. It was a nice experience. But as of now, I've made another bad investment for the wrong people. But that's okay, at least I've learnt a few lessons from this. I've learnt that although I sincerely and genuinely want to make friends, it doesn't mean the other party also is welcoming that idea nor do they want to reciprocrate.
/end rant
