First of all, hi.. Decided to sign up on this forum because I really need to find solution regarding my mental sickness. It's probably not chronic but I really can't stand it.

Few days ago, right after semester break(Im a student) I decided to look up on the internet whats wrong with me. I've found whats wrong with me actually but I still need answers. I found out that I have Long-term High Stress Level( http://www.bpdfamily.com/bpdresources/nk_a112.htm ) .

I concluded that I have that stress because of it's definition; Long-term High Stress Level In this situation, the patient is depressed but can't quite put their finger on the cause, the "I'm depressed but I don't know why" condition. Imagine running a video tape of your life, reviewing the past 18 months. Look at the stress you've been under, the amount of responsibility, the number of pressures, and the number of hassles. In actual clinical practice, this cause of depression is seen more often than sudden loss. This type of depression creeps up on you. When this type of depression is experienced, the patient offers comments such as: "I don't know what's wrong!" "I don't know how I feel." "My feelings are numb."

I dont feel it 24/7 but I feel it when I'm alone or when I'm about to sleep. These days, I tend sleep early but I really wakes up easily(Im not like this before). I never told anyone bout it not even my best friends cus' I know they'll end up like it's nothing. So, what should I do? Suggestions please and does anyone here experienced this kind of stress?

This post has been edited by itsmeasyraf: May 24 2013, 01:22 AM

Psychologist or psychiatrist ? Plus, Im looking for anyone who has experience this before. Suggestions is what I need.

Okay, but does ING Insurance cover this kind of situation? Well, going to the government's for sure gonna takes time.

Noted and yeahh, at 1st I was shocked as hell. Thanks for the advice.

This post has been edited by itsmeasyraf: May 29 2013, 01:27 AM

Tham? What's that? Im thinking not to go to gov hospital also but I dont think my insurance cover this kind of sickness. Well, at this moment its still there and I smoke(cigarettes) like a lot. Im not a heavy smoker but now I think I am. But that does help me to forget at the moment only.

Im good with my studies and broken family? I had that since I was 7yo I bet that is not the problem. I really cant figure out why am I having this kind of stress.

Hopefully, thank you.

That would be great. I'll try to find some counselor or psychologist.

Thank you for the info. I'll try the fish oil.

Thank you, this would help if I'm not lazy to wake up in the morning and not to just sip my nice black coffee.. I'll try.

Yoga and meditation? Im not sure that I'd do that.. tq anyway..

Sounds like a great idea. Thank you. I'll try that.

My friends cancelled it due to insufficient amount of time -.- and I'm thinking of studying my degree abroad. If God wills it.

I'm sure they won't take it seriously. That's why I didn't. I tried to hangout.. but at some point I will have this feeling of being alone. Being alone means, I will get out of the crowd and stop talking..

I'm thinking of going to the Pantai Hospital E.R.. Is that okay? I have AIA Insurance. I just wanna consult the doctor thats all. Its getting a little worse now..

Salam..This is what I'm trying to do. But I can't.. It's not like Im avoiding,its like Im pushing everyone and everything around me and I dont want that and I dont know why Im pushing that off me. I did try and still trying.. Its hard to explain.. its like all of the things that make me depressed is building up and its just there. I dont know what to do.. even if I try, its still there.. It does makes my life feel worthless. Its complicated.