burst out crying for at least 2 hours continously. Eyes swollen all negative thoughts bang into my head. suicidal thought--cut or hang myself. holding a knife, shivering and trembling cold frightened of pains yet heart is so bloody hurt. give up or stay on worth it huh but how could i stay on i hate this feeling.
sometimes i cry so much and my eyes get so painful i need to even scold myself to stop crying unless i want to get blind.