Haha thanks! Though it was actually been years because I was in denial and things got worse starting 2 years ago  and now things starting to get better because I started seeking out help from people Though seriously I hope I know this forum earlier - 4 years ago so that I can build up a good argument against my parents to not go for Medicine or even a little later so that I was early enough to dropout and breach scholarship contract (or even when I was worried to pay rm9k for my sponsor for leaving during preparation program and opt for KTJ. I know it was really stupid of me but I was 17 barely out of school and been incubated in boarding school for 5 years. that was a huge amount for me). But now, it's too late to opt for another option (friends soon graduate - some in other courses have graduated with their bachelor degree already) and damage is done, the only way out is to calm myself, try to install interest in me and find a better way out. And I need to work hard on that.

Anyway I see that money is the issue here. Guess need to figure out that part eh? But becoming a RA is not a bad idea too. But how is it like, applying directly to Professors? Is it possible to do this in top notch uni? Or is it possible to do this at local uni and will there be opportunities to go to top uni?