I feel suicidal everyday, the only thing that keeps me living is the thought of my parents if they were to see me die, it would be very very devastating because I am the only son(watching them taking care of me and also my sisters). I was brought up really good by them. So I keep my distance from major conflicts (fights & gangs from high school friends, now brawls in clubs etc). When happiness is found, yes, it is like you want to live your life to the fullest because of that. Sadly every thing that makes me happy ends badly. The thought of isolating myself from the world came up not so long ago, it is too depressing, I can't figure out why. I hope I can find happiness again.

inb4 cool story bro