Hello everyone.
I am not a lowyat forumer, but my bestie send me a link to this thread and I felt compelled to answer the call for help.
First of all, it's not really that surprising that you had this fetish. Everyone had their own preferences and weird behavior, only that we live in Malaysia, our people are not so open about this. (not open at all actually)
My reply to Siren,
You are not alone girl, because, I too had this exhibitionism problem. Had, as if, I managed to keep it under control.
My first experience with a bikini at a public beach when I was 17, was the trigger for this fetish. I became so aroused at that time I had to go to the toilet and 'relief' myself.
And it get worse as I age, I got naked at my uni, office, beach, and many other place. I even let some stranger see me from a far. At one time I drove from KL-Seremban early in the morning without anything on! The reaction of the guy at the toll booth was priceless!
Cut story short, I did far much worse than you did back when I was addicted.
I know this fetish had to stop, it's unhealthy and weird. For 2 years now I've managed to control this urge. What I did:
1. You realize that this fetish is no more than a sexual desire, right? So feed it. Instead from going outside, just 'touch' yourself in your bedroom or bathroom. It's much safer, and the urge will go away. You don't have to run back to your home. Maybe this is not the best solution, but it helps.
2. Sometime I give the keys of my car to my housemate. She always lock her door. So I can't drive myself naked anywhere. In your case, I advice to lock your house door with a padlock and give the keys to your parents / secretly place it in your parent's drawer. This will help to stop you.
3. Take a bath every time the urge is pushing, it helps too.
4. My best advice, share it with someone really close and you trust to keep it a secret.
Take her advice, and make promise to her that you will stop. If you value a promise, it will help you settle down.
I hope this help. Please PM me so we can keep in touch. We can also meet and I will gladly help you.