Hi, one of neurologist doc diagnose me anxiety depression disorder.

Gave me lots of different type of pills, first he gave me not so strong one then but it didn't help me so he gave me even stronger one, such as Xanax, able me to go sleep nicely but after 6 months prescription, it does help, i feel always happy for 6 months but isn't working no more, so i want to quit the medication, withdrawal side effect is crazy.

Then went back to see this Doc, I told him med isn't working no more, then Doc gave me more powerful pill, i took like 5 days and i got all this side effect, like feel like i am crazy, anxiety shooting up the roof, you can say the pill is able to commit suicide or go on a killing spree, then doc pull me off the pill, telling me that i am strong enough to withstand the temptation to kill people. Yes there is a thought, once my brother sleeping next room, i have this disgusting image, and this urge to kill my bro cause he coughing too much but I manage to keep myself saint.

After that, I told doc to not give me any pill no more, the side effect isn't worth the happiness and he insist to give me more pill, then i quit seeing him.

I look for other doctor, this time a psychiatrist. First i thought it is all bullshit but after 2-3 time session, he knows me too well, I told him that i don't want to take medication and i want to control my anxiety... every week i see him, he gave advice on what I should be improving, like listening people for example. He teach me technique on how to do that.

Yet, he didn't bother to ask my anxiety stuff, i guess he wants to focus the most important thing. I have random muscle twitching every day, I did MRI scan and everything went okay, it concluded that I have emotional problem. I went to see a lot of doctor, all concluded the same theory. I thought I had Parkinson but all doc assure me that I don't have that disease.

I am a bit paranoid on getting disease, once i see a black spot on my knee, straight google and found out skin cancer. In the end, it is a mole and it is nothing.


Currently, I don't take pill, if i have anxiety pop out all of a sudden, i usually take deep breath, walk around house, talk to people, occupy myself. Not nice to have anxiety if my life isn't threatening.

According to survey, majority of people doesn't aware they got anxiety and most of them brush it off, but some people like myself, are very aware on how our body works.

So my advice is, if you want to take depression medication, make sure it is working for you, you might need to try a lot of pills to suit you. Only take depression pills if necessary, like a loved one just pass away where you couldn't cope, or an horrible event happen to you. Other then that, highly recommend don't take pills, try to see a psychiatrist. If his profession opinion is to give you medication, first think, how's your life right now and you really need it? Depression medication is just another way to mask your symptoms.

I am still working my way up... hopefully one day i can manage my anxiety. According to doc, he said me i am strong to suffer 3 years + depression without medication

This post has been edited by Plant: Feb 5 2012, 11:57 PM