ooo thx for advice, i try tmr mor... i mean afternoon..

after that he apologised and somehow our teleconversations died and not much texts.. i forgive, i cant forget just yet.. the tinge of pain is really strong. i mean i already never expect a boyf to support me financially but this is too much.. and he's a lawyer so... how could he say that

neways, drama apart, i cried 1 whole night. and never did again. though shit songs do make me emo, i always hold back my tears. we gotta be tough n stand up on our own.. happiness doesnt necessarily need to be dependant on someone else. but of course having someone right to hold ur hand and walk down the road of old age is everyone's dream. but i believe each and every one of us will land on happiness one day. it's just that we havent found ours..

yeah i try not to think too much, but the problem is we are a little bit like strangers all of a sudden. actually it has been 2 weeks since, still same situation. sigh. but dont worry, i will always make myself alright because my parents would want to see me happy. wont do this to them

yeah things happen for a reason i do believe that.. but u would know how much it has affected me coz a friend gave me a pat on my shoulder today and i almost teared up.. which is smth that rarely happens to me. i dont realy cry. heh. but dont worry, im alright.

actually i let it go, i called him i texted him like usual but he's kinda distant.. so im spending a lot of time alone atm because im giving him time and space.. if he comes back if he doesnt.. i guess im not what he's looking for then.......................

its not for me, my mata sakit after that.. then i cant open my eyes and i would just want to sleep only.. loll.. but i think he was shocked la coz he seldom see me cry wan.. everyday only i laugh and laugh and make lame sarcastic remarks.. lololl

hmmm friends can be there.. but in order to make sure when i 'heal' i will really be fully healed, i hv to rely on myself to get up on my two own feet for now..

i didnt. i dont want to............... or maybe we cant yet. but we did meet after that.. last met him friday though..

my cuzzies came over this weekend, i hv been puttng a lot of time for work so that i dont think that much.. so he went off for a fishing trip with his colleagues..

guess we will meet up coming weekend.

yeap i know i can do it. the only uncertainty is WHEN. heh.

uve said it, u dont want to be suffering ur whole life.. so dont sit on it any longer, wont do any of u any good

masjid stop singing liao.. i think we should all head for bed. tmr morning when all the buayas come in to check out the pics they will go FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ----------> cupid corner that way.

lololollllll

not me or him cant. its like the situation, cant.. lol.. alright go bed.. nitey nites mollai.. dont cry cry anymore

i in bed balut blanket jor lor.. hehehe...

u know him better, so u should be clearer of whether he will or not good luck babe.

yeah! i cant see the mosque and i actually dunno where it is but i can always hear it.. but distant though

time will tell, for u and i.. wk80 u too. lololl

nights u both.

Lololollll gedik. I ada letak gambar cicak

Ma eyeessssssss!!!!!!!

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