Christ in His incarnation came to earth not only to bring the infinite God into the finite man and to unite and mingle the Triune God with the tripartite man, but also to express the bountiful God in His humanity, His human living. God is bountiful in His rich and many attributes. The attributes of God are what God is. He is love, light, holiness, and righteousness. We all admire humility. The real humble One is God. He was the infinite God, but He humbled Himself to become a finite man. Philippians 2:6-7 says that He existed in the form of God, but He took the form of a slave, becoming in the likeness of men. Verse 8 says, "And being found in fashion as a man, He humbled Himself, becoming obedient even unto death, and that the death of a cross." He was in the form of God, but He humbled Himself to put on the form of man, becoming obedient to God, even unto the death of the cross. He became a servant, washing the feet of His disciples (John 13:1-11). God is the real One that is humble. Humility is one of the many attributes of God. God's attributes were expressed in Christ as a man to be Christ's virtues. Christ expressed the bountiful God in His human living, mainly expressing God in His rich attributes, that is, in the unsearchable riches of what God is.

When the attributes of God became the virtues of Christ in His humanity, these virtues were very aromatic and sweet. This is why so many people throughout the centuries have been captivated by Jesus and love Jesus. He is so sweet and good. Christ attracted and captivated people not by living His human life in the flesh but by living His divine life in resurrection.

No worshiping him because he has broken the chain of oppression, the chain of Financial Lack, the Chain of ignorance, the Chain of Negativism, The Chain of Doubt, etc etc but Most importantly of all the Chain of Sin which result in Eternal Death.

The word is the word of God, the most powerful thing in the world.

Many people feel the same like you do only because you yourself kept your distance from God.

Well to put it simply, you cannot go where you want to go if you don't know where you are in life. Think about that for a moment. It's a powerful thought.

If you have questions or doubt about your Life, it's time for you to Ask God why do you need to go to Church.

Nobody have 100% revelation of the entire Bible, God made it in such away so that we don't get lazy studying the bible everyday.
It's an everyday effort to know the Bible.

Hint: To know God's word is to know God himself. It's not easy. That's why we come to church to learn but the best Bible Teacher is the Holy Spirit teaching you in everyday life experience.

Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

Haha ... we have a misconception about the church ... or "going to church"...

God’s intention concerning the church is first to produce many sons with His life (1:5). All these sons have the life of God and inherit all that He is, all that He has, all that He planned, and all that He accomplished. Every member of the church is a son of God and also will eventually be an heir of God. In this sense, God’s intention for the church is to multiply and reproduce Himself, to have a mass reproduction of Himself. If a man has many sons, all these sons are his multiplication. A few years ago, there was only the one man by himself, but today there are many of him—he is the original, and his sons are his duplication and multiplication. The multiplication of God is His family, and His family is the church.

Ephesians 1:5 speaks of the sonship. The real meaning of sonship is the multiplication of God. God is unlimited, but God still needs a great multiplication. After God created Adam, He told him to multiply and replenish the earth, that is, to fill up the earth (Gen. 1:28). God’s intention for the church is to produce many sons, to multiply Himself. John 12:24 tells us that the one grain would become many grains. The many grains are the multiplication, duplication, and reproduction of the one grain.

I'm saying you can because

1 John 4:4 Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.

If you refuse then you deceive yourself. that's the point.

It's wrong for somebody else to deceive others but to deceive yourself is a greater implication.

Haha ... again you fall back on your concept of "going to church".... it is not a place but an entity.

The church is the totality of the divine sonship. Originally, Jesus Christ as the unique Son of God was the individual expression of God. John 1:18 says, “No one has ever seen God; the only begotten Son, who is in the bosom of the Father, He has declared Him.” This expression of God by the individual Son, Jesus Christ, was a perfect expression, but it did not fulfill God’s goal. God’s goal is to have the totality of the divine sonship. As the redeemed, forgiven, saved, and regenerated sons of God, we have the divine nature of God (2 Pet. 1:4).

So the church is a group of people having the life and living of God, living out Christ on the earth today.

So the church is a group of people having the life and living of God, living out Christ on the earth today.

okay here's something you might be interested in.

If you master a high level of God's word, you can do anything and everything in your life.

But you are still young in your Christian walk, you need for time being someone to guide you, that's why Churches have leaders and Care groups.

Alone is very hard to grow.

I was delivered from the bondage of porn Addiction.

I destroyed every pornographic materials willingly without holding back.

I tithe (donation as you said) my business money to God and He bless me back in multiple fold.

Many times I'm in financial needs but yet God delivered and provided beyond my needs.

All these was my God who provided. Not by own doing.

To name a few.

I was delivered from the bondage of porn Addiction.

I destroyed every pornographic materials willingly without holding back.

I tithe (donation as you said) my business money to God and He bless me back in multiple fold.

Many times I'm in financial needs but yet God delivered and provided beyond my needs.

All these was my God who provided. Not by own doing.

To name a few.

Why don't you try and resist lust and porn, see if you can even resist more than 2 months.

If you can. 

That is no small matter.

That is why a lot of people still live by sight and have no success in their walk with God.
Nothing works out when all you know is living without Faith.
Even to have faith but not towards God will bring nothing to your life.

Jesus said Apart from Me you can do nothing. (John 15:5)

Try and totally stop and see if you can. 

It's not just fapping but to avoid seeing anything lustful. 

See if you can.

That's why I know you cannot and you will find excuse to say it's in your nature. Of course those who are in Sin will feel that way to feel comfortable.

But Sin is destructive because Luke 11:34 Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eyes are good, your whole body also is full of light. But when they are bad, your body also is full of darkness.

You feed unwholesome materials you will ultimately destroy yourself because from one sin it will lead to another. From one small little seemingly harmless fire it will spread to the point where it becomes uncontrollable.

Case and example porn will lead to lust and lust to coveting  and coveting you will destroy those you love around you. That's why there promiscuity, cheating and unfaithful relationship.