Death in my scientific understanding is when the biology of the body cease to function. At the same time, since my family background is slightly religious, at least during my upbringing, i have also the idea that death is when you will no longer be able to serve your purpose in life as dictated by my religion. (I have the opinion that for any one who have adopt a less mechanical notion on life and death, they must have a purpose which is dictated by, if not religion, by moral philosophy.)
To sum it up, death contains both certainty and uncertainty.
"Where do you think your meaning/idea of death originated from?"
In my case, since I'm a Malay Muslim, my idea hence must be largely be influenced by the Quran and the accompanying Hadith. However, as i learn and read from various scholarly books such as psychology, philosophy, comparative religion et cetera i have lift some fear of death common within the Malay-muslim culture (maybe my vanity is talking here, but i think it might be useful for you to do profiling).
"What emotions/feelings do you experience when you think about death?"
Since death contains both certainty and uncertainty in my idea, i rather feel neutral on what death is about, and feel that it is better to focus on life (rather than worrying or wondering about whether to have optimistic or pessimistic attitude toward death).
Can you share any personal experiences that you connect with death?
I have not seen death occurs near me, or within my family. The closest experience relating to death I have is visiting people who are in their "nazak" state (i do not know how to translate to english, "near death" doesn't seem to accurately translate it). However, while visiting, it puzzles me that, apparently, i'm desensitized toward the idea death. The only explanation i think i have is due to my scientific understanding (mechanical view) on death.
"I’d also like to ask you guys to leave here one aspect of yourself that you are comfortable disclosing and identify with e.g. age, gender, race, religion, hometown, etc."
Can i leave a lot of aspects?
Gender: Male
Year of birth: 1986
Parentage: One of my parent is pure melanau, brought up in what i perceived to be inside a traditional melanau-muslim family.
The other is a malay-chinese mix that have traditional sarawak-malay culture. Both of my parents seems to have a slight informal religious education.
My upbringing (i put this in because i think childhood has the strongest influence in establishing mentality and world-view):
I'd say my environment during upbringing is not exactly a typical malay environment. The kids i used to play with were all chinese except two malay and one english expat. My father was quite liberal in instilling cultural value, but my mother have somewhat strong cultural prejudice and values.
When it comes to religion, my father seems to be more focused on instilling the practice (prayer, fasting, reading quran) rather than its philosophy (view of life and death, the afterlife, God's will etc).
My schooling were SRB Agama and SMK Agama which during the latter i stayed in the dormitory.
I continued my study in Matriculation, which is the only part of my formal education that i have studied alongside non-bumis. Then I attended and finished my study in a university that is predominantly consists of Malay and bumi students.
Religion: Islam. In reality a non-practicing, but I want to be a practicing Muslim.
Hometown: Kuching, sarawak.
I also would like to share from some unofficial personality tests i took, i consistently get INTP result from various Myers-Briggs Type Indicator tests.
One unofficial personality disorder i took indicates that i'm a schizoidal, and i believe it because the description is somewhat accurate but i think i don't worry about it.
Jan 28 2011, 11:18 AM
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