He loves me actually just now he loves dota too. I think. All these times I thought I should do something for him. But I'm very tired dy. Very very tired dy. I don't have the courage to let go. Coz he is the only guy I dated before. It's hard to find someone we really fell in love with. Love is not about money, not about the look. It's about the feelings. I think that's the reason I fell into him. I'm afraid if I let go, I wouldn't meet someone. It's hard. Anyways, thanks fr all the replies. I just registered in this forum yesterday and I found that this forum is really a nice place to visit when I'm very down. Thank you. I shall let go. He wants computer. Not a gf. Thanks a lot people. Thank you so much. Inreally appreciate all the replies very much. It's not only the words. It's all about the support and courage you guys gave me. Thank you. Once again, thank you so much.