to be who u want to be

goo goo rest ur eyes...
**tied B&W onto the chair**

tak boleh!!   
yeap yeap ... if bad memories den dont think to much bout it bahhh

dont cry for person that dont worth your tears ... if wan also cry cause of happiness better den cry for sadness mah ...  have to be tough!! 

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Added on April 24, 2010, 12:02 pm

why so??? u got molested there??     

kl le?
gain a lot of lesson from there...
crys..ada msn tak?

*shouldnt take something that not belong to u*

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Added on April 24, 2010, 12:05 pm

i ada msn ...

i also learn a lots of lessons from my EX .. but the most important one is GUYS CANT BE TRUSTED FOR THIER WORDS... hahahaha 
herm .. i duno woh .. i only know u recently nia not meh   

tell u wat ... my ex bf curang with a gurl working in SG too ... 

gd to hear that
+1...the more u trust the more u sad..    

the word that i hate the most is I WILL BE THERE WHEN U NEED ME
wtf

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Added on April 24, 2010, 12:11 pm
i DONNO

i LDR with my ex for 4 years and guess what ... he is only at Ipoh i at KL ... but he curang for so many times .. 
hahah .. not stupid or not stupid la .. just sometimes when love jor .. things will a bit out of control cause we cant really think properly cause misted up by the 'love' feeling ... but when the mist gone .. den only we realise we fall into a trap     

apa actions u mau   
nah .. noone ish stupid in that i guess ... come come i sayang balik      dont think bout it jor ..

just feel like crying now...  

im from kl..others some from other state also
ya..me too..when i need them , only i realize there is no one for me..

good then
why sigh???
lol ... wan count with me like that meh ..

for example??? 

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Added on April 24, 2010, 8:42 pm

sure or not??? come come we go Penang makan!!! 

haiz.... Looks like I have to join this club now... LOL. Funny how things turn out. Anyone here care to share some words of wisdom or advice or comfort? Damn... I'm a guy here and its so embarrassing to discuss over petty issues like this. F**kin hate going through this... especially when u are all alone. It is so detrimental...

ermmm.... what happen??

Dumbo always confused one la.

I'm a workaholic to be exact... I guess that this age (26) it is very normal for guys like me to work towards a goal. Although I don't usually show my affection through boxes of chocolates or flowers or even a romantic dinner, I choose to work hard and make sure we live a comfortable life thereafter.

However there was this day when my gf keep asking me to do something else while she occupies the computer. I got curious and approached from behind to find out what was she up to. Then when she realised my presence, she immediately logout her MSN. I questioned her action and she was overly defensive.

At that point in time. I snapped. I contribute this to the mounted stress from work. I got furious and totally out of my mind. I'm not an overly jealous freak or over protective of my gf. I gave her a lot of freedom and trust, but I still cannot forgive myself for being so violent. I actually smashed the laptop and laid my hands on her. I am totally wrong at that.

Therefore, I suggested that she should move on as I cannot contain the anger and potential threat to her safety. I love her but do not deserve her.
So... thats what happened. I'm a f***ing sick ******* right? ...

Things were on the rocks. We strive to stay supportive and understanding. but our work is drawing us apart. Especially when she is now in charge of a regional project and I'm promoted to a managerial position. The additional responsibilities seemed too heavy to carry. Our working hours are odd especially when I have to work overtime to have a tele conference with our USA client and she has to travel a lot. You probably know the time difference as compared to Malaysia, our sleeping time is their(USA) working time.

Somehow, I saw that coming... the break-up. It was just a matter of time. And true enough... it happens... Oh well... I'll need plenty of time to contemplate and recuperate from this. Thanks for your concerns tho...