back~

yeah,i know i'm cute~ can't stop fallin in love

not nice also~

true 2 ur heart~ by mulan better~

sigh~
lonely later~

sigh,it's goin 2 rain n i do not wan 2 b lonely~

tak apa~
janji u'll heal in short time while i'm not~
need 2 patch up my broke heart~

sigh~
unhappy now~

jus found out tat my ex got in2 accicent few days ago make me restless n i wen over for a ride n really saw her car got damage~

i did but sum how my heart is not made from steel or stainless steel but a heart of love~
jus tat i was restless tis few days for sum thing but i dunno wat is tat so i wen out for a ride since 2day i wasn't so busy wit wit like past few days n came back home late n tired n i saw her car's damage on da rear~
even thou our relationship wasn't really long like 4-9yrs n it's neither short also but v used 2 b attach very closely heart 2 heart till many things happen tis yr n broke us up finally after so long for her parent suffering for disliking me as a mechanic~
i really need 2 learn how 2 make my heart really hard n numb so tat i can really forget her but her memories shall remains in my heart n thou v broke up n i still care about her very much as she was 1 of da girl whom i really love wit my entire heart tat can even make me planned 2 marry her n i also did disccuss wit my mom edi~
how ever i can't b like her jus forget me n got herself a new guy in her life jus like tat not even 40days of broke up while me still here mourning for my lost of my life~

i dunno~
i tried 2 reach her but she dun reply me n i even ask her ji-muiz but also no reply~
i feel so sad~

i was at her house jus now lo~




yes,i do but sigh~
dunno la~
jus heart pain~

sigh~
jus came back from my ex-gf's house area after looking at her damage kelisa makes me so heart broken see-ing her beloved 'lau gong' no longer leng zai edi~
da workmanship is very bad knocking from wat i can c n i really cannot accept it but no choice had 2 accept it also cuz she's no longer my gf any more but other guy's gf as for now~
jus hope he can help her 2 seal up 3inch scar hole on her rear bumper below otherwise will start 2 rust n water will go in~

sigh~

sigh~

u know wat? ?
i used 2 like it very much~
but since da day wen i broke up,i really lost appetite 2 eat especially my fav food n teppanyaki where i was used 2 eat nearby my dad's shop~
ytd i met da aunty who used 2 open a fried chicken,chicken nugget n sotong n she said how come i so skinnier than b4 as she saw all my veins on my arms showing up so obivously as i told her since broke up,i wept so much n i really ate very less n not even 1/4 of da total meals tat i usually ate per day n she comfort me not 2 remember her/talk about her anymore n i told her it's da passed liao talk also no used or feelings edi but in d end i din't realise tat i still can't couldn't go over it as i wen over her house ytd n found out tat her car was involve in minor accident which makes me felt so restless few days ago as i got a strange feeling n weird till can't sleep well,wen i reach her house area then i saw wat happen then only i knew y da reason i'm like tat cuz i'm still loving her but no choice 2 let her go but not fully release her yet cuz she's always b my baby who is soft,naive,cute,chubby n also stupid but i love her bcuz of wat n who she was n she was also my love which i truely love her so much tat i ever tot of our future n getting engage where i've talk 2 my mom n very close fren[who i also call him as my father,buddy n also a person who will always b there wen i was young till now]~

it's really not easy for me right now~
will b goin out soon meet my fren[father,buddy n etc etc]
he's da only 1 person tat i can ever show him my true face without a mask~

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Added on October 17, 2009, 3:04 pmi kmow n point taken from u but i still need a lot of time cuz she's da only girl who wen thru wit my hardest time of needing ppl 2 support me morally~
tat's y i can't fully release her~

This post has been edited by cheeann: Oct 17 2009, 03:04 PM

sienz~

sigh~
tat fella again~




i tot ur 10 fingers also cannot finish count? ?

i need a bf~
2day i cried n wept badly while hugging my 1 n only 1 person who i call him a dad,fren n buddy~
i felt so much relieve n lighter now after i did tat~




later tio AIDS then u know~

This post has been edited by cheeann: Oct 17 2009, 08:29 PM