its been more than 1 month after i broke up my 3 years relationship with her..it been upside down..mostly down..

the hardest part is i still care bout her..a lot of memories...i try to avoid all those thing that remind me of her,but it keep haunted me..i still dun believe this is happening.,..yet we always think that we perfect for each other..(WTF!)

she still wanna be frens with me,but the way she treat me,is not like a normal frens,more like, she just want to make sure that there is always sum1 who want to help her if her new guy f***ed up..at least,that what im thinking..and the saddest part is,im fall for it..sigh...

its hard to let go..i always feeling lonely,especially before i sleep and my biological clock already messed up..hahaha..woke up with sore eyes..damn..im not in a gud shape.

i always told myself,"get urself back together,u are alone rite now,no one there for you.." but in reality,its much more harder than it seem...

there,my frst post in this hearbreak room...sigh..my frst relationship only last 7 year and it took me more than 2 years to recover..damn..this time..dunno how long..im sick and tired with girls actually..sorry,no offence...

background song:Everybody knows by John Legend

"all the lonely people,where do they all belong" - Eleanor Rigby

miss my ex gf...although it has been like 5 months already..